~𝓚𝓪𝓻𝓶𝓪🥀🍃

“How did you know you were in love?”
          I’ve been asked this question any time I used that 4 letter word.
          If I gave them the real answer I know they’d wish they have never heard
          Because whilst I might say it was when I felt my stomach churn and the butterflies begin to fly
          The real answer is when I started to feel the alcohol burn the back of my throat until I drink the bottle dry
          I can’t love naturally
          Love hurts
          Even healthy love sends my mind spiraling
          So to keep me sane and to keep us from tumbling 
          I ease my pain with that bottom of the bottle sparkling
          And that’s how I know I’m in love
          When I start to overthink every word said as I lay in bed and the only thing that can silence the annoying hum of my insecurities is a bottle of rum.

Dear you,
          
          You’re not who I thought you were. You’re not who anybody thought you were. The recent information that’s come out about you feels like a 9 inch blade to my back and through my heart. I can’t believe I let you touch me. I still feel your hands and lips all over my body. I’m disgusted with myself, and ashamed. I know it’s not my fault. You were an amazing, pronominal actor. You had every single person around you fooled. I would award you an Oscar if I held that power. But I can’t help but feel so mad at myself for not seeing through you. And I gave you exactly what you wanted. I played right into the palm of your hand. Just like my father warned me not to do. The one person you didn’t have fooled and he never even met you face to face. I wish I had listened. I wish I could erase everything that happened between us. I hate you. But I still can’t help but feel this longing. Like what we could have been if you had just been who I thought you were. But that’s not who you are. And you will never be that. What’s worse is it’s not just me you lied to. You lied and backstabbed every single one of our colleagues. Of our friends. I hate that a part of me is still missing you. But I want so badly to move on and pretend like you never happened. And that’s what I plan to do. When we first split ways I still wished you the best. But after hearing everything about you, I don’t think anything could make me happier than your downfall.
          
          From, K
          
          I had to share this somewhere.

I’ve recently taken up drinking. That’s fun.

Hmm

oh shit heyyyyy

With tears in your eyes, you begged me to stay… I said “Hey man, I love you, but no fuckin way…” <\3

Hello. I know a lot of you are here from my AkaKuro story. It’s been a long time since I updated and I know you probably don’t care about all this but my life’s been crazy recently and I need somewhere to rant.
          
          I think the last time I updated was somewhere in December. Well around then I got out of a very toxic relationship and to be honest it left me heartbroken and down in the dumps for awhile. Then only a few weeks after that I’d gotten out of a toxic friendship as well. These 2 people were at the time the only people I had so even though they were toxic, losing them both at the same time really hit me hard. I started smoking weed a lot. I eventually brought some to school because peer pressure (: I got caught and sent to an alternative school. But recently I got someone back in my life from a long time ago and they make me really happy and give me all types of motivation. I quit smoking as much and I’m making new friends. My life’s starting to get back on track. And I got more than enough credits to graduate. So I guess I never officially announced that I was on a hiatus but none the less, I’ll start updating again soon, hopefully!

Hello I am just wondering if you will update 'nothing but a filthy commoner' 
          I don't want to pressure you but I was curious 

Hello, Ha-Woon? -sxftBxy-?
          
          About that Waiting4update, please don't feel pressure about having to update. I'm just organizing which book I had read and have not. I'm very sorry if you feel that way. :D

☠︎➛︎{Hello everyone! I’m an sincerely sorry for my inactivity! If you are reading any if my stories I will attempt to update them soon! Thank you so much for everyone’s patience!}