-tipsyijoo

how do i get over this consuming tendency to cringe at my own stuff

ghxstbird10

@-tipsyijoo I honestly have the same problem. Sometimes I can read a paragraph of my old stuff and think, "Wow, how did I come up with that?" But most of the time I just shudder. lol. I often have thoughts of rewriting some of them but also don't think there is much of a point when it's already been published and mass read.
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-tipsyijoo

the main reason i drag with ssa updates is cause i can't get myself to publish any further when i cringe at my old writing, especially because it's too in depth, mostly simply written and just extremely cheesy. so everytime i do update, it's because i fought with myself to upload despite my discontentment and the urge to improve my old writing (which i refuse to do because i know i'll keep procrastinating, being one that needs a mood to function here). other than that, i'm just barely online ever since i stopped writing around last year. i can't get myself to republish my other old works + oneshots either. ts a serious struggle
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-tipsyijoo

how do i get over this consuming tendency to cringe at my own stuff

ghxstbird10

@-tipsyijoo I honestly have the same problem. Sometimes I can read a paragraph of my old stuff and think, "Wow, how did I come up with that?" But most of the time I just shudder. lol. I often have thoughts of rewriting some of them but also don't think there is much of a point when it's already been published and mass read.
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-tipsyijoo

the main reason i drag with ssa updates is cause i can't get myself to publish any further when i cringe at my old writing, especially because it's too in depth, mostly simply written and just extremely cheesy. so everytime i do update, it's because i fought with myself to upload despite my discontentment and the urge to improve my old writing (which i refuse to do because i know i'll keep procrastinating, being one that needs a mood to function here). other than that, i'm just barely online ever since i stopped writing around last year. i can't get myself to republish my other old works + oneshots either. ts a serious struggle
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-tipsyijoo

officially retiring as a nj writer. you will still be seeing a few of my old nj works nevertheless, if i feel like it. but otherwise, expect new ships instead. well, i actually just wanted to retire as a writer in general, but years of my journey would genuinely not let me stay away, because despite losing motivation in one of the ships, i do still have plans on working on others. plus, writing has been an on and off hobby of mine since 2018, and suddenly letting go would only require clown music playing in the background, because i'll definitely come crawling back. that being said, i won't exactly disappear forever. i'd just be moving my attention and focus to other ships, because my nj drive has genuinely burntout (meaning, i won't even try to proofread my old works. meaning, they'll either be fully changed up to suit other ships, or they'll come out as they are, depending on my mood).
          
          i do admit that changing my old fics to fit other ships will be incredibly difficult and need a lot of work because most of my works are very exclusively realistic and unique to nj, but i think i could do it as long as i have the motivation to write for those specific pairs. i don't know if this is exciting, or disappointing to everyone, but i wanted to let everyone know anyway.

-tipsyijoo

all i do is yap or disappear
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-tipsyijoo

cons of being an ancient writer: most of my works don't fit the fans in the current fandom now. what would've been amazing back then, would lowkey just be weird now. ssa is the most normal one, while the others ask to be vanished off of existence. the lesson here is to publish things as soon as you write them. one that i'll never learn.

saturnheaddverse

@-tipsyijoo I'M WEIRD ENOUGH TO READ ALL OF THEM 
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-tipsyijoo

does juju give you extreme aggression and make you go crazy as well or is it just me

-tipsyijoo

wish i wasn't a mild perfectionist who has to proofread my works. around 30 fics would've been out by now, otherwise. it's only worse that i seldom make time for proofreading, it's such a pain in the ass, especially since i get sick of rereading the same thing. should've never indulged and entertained myself with my own stuff throughout these years. now i only groan whenever i have to go back to each. the current process i have, is jumping through multiple fics depending on my mood, but the downside is that it seems to be taking lifetimes since i'm a procrastination final boss.
          
          my writer phase began in 2018 and ended last year, now i'm just back to reader mode, which is why i can't seem to focus. but i don'r know if that's something to apologize for, since it's not a big deal as long as no one knows i'm gatekeeping my fantasized delusions. i'm confessing nevertheless cause i need prayers. let's hope i end up sharing my stuff to the world at some point, though i don't mind if they remain as my own personal entertainment. they're just too good, and at times like this, i wish i really did get a hogwarts letter, just so i could use a proofreading spell. amen to that

-tipsyijoo

accidentally deleted my own reply when i tried to reply to you. but thanks for being a consistent reader! <3
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-justanotherreader

@-tipsyijoo that‘s so true, the fandom was so big and now it seems so small. i‘m wondering if that‘s changing when the new series comes out. because i‘ve been active in the fandom since 2018 and it really seems so dead now. 
            and if you decide to publish the story, i‘d absolutely read it, that‘s for sure! 
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-justanotherreader

@-tipsyijoo it was like my first fandom ever! i gotta admit i‘m really deep into the marauders for years now, but ofc i‘m also a huge fan of the golden trio (the second war) itself. i know how to seperate these two so it‘s fine loll. what about you? 
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