wish i wasn't a mild perfectionist who has to proofread my works. around 30 fics would've been out by now, otherwise. it's only worse that i seldom make time for proofreading, it's such a pain in the ass, especially since i get sick of rereading the same thing. should've never indulged and entertained myself with my own stuff throughout these years. now i only groan whenever i have to go back to each. the current process i have, is jumping through multiple fics depending on my mood, but the downside is that it seems to be taking lifetimes since i'm a procrastination final boss.
my writer phase began in 2018 and ended last year, now i'm just back to reader mode, which is why i can't seem to focus. but i don'r know if that's something to apologize for, since it's not a big deal as long as no one knows i'm gatekeeping my fantasized delusions. i'm confessing nevertheless cause i need prayers. let's hope i end up sharing my stuff to the world at some point, though i don't mind if they remain as my own personal entertainment. they're just too good, and at times like this, i wish i really did get a hogwarts letter, just so i could use a proofreading spell. amen to that