for all those wondering -
yes all my books were unpublished, no it is not permanent and all previously published chapters should be back up by the end of the month.
the reason?
i have always felt the need to tone down my writing as it can get quite heavy and long, but this has made it harder for me to be excited about writing and as a result i end up barely updating after hitting a certain point. so in an attempt to fix that all stories have been unpublished and the chapters edited - a majority of them will keep the same backbone without a doubt but the words used to tell the story will be shifted and the voice will properly be my own rather than a quietened version.
sorry for any confusion and thank you for the continued support <3