━ does anyone else have that one thing you want to say to that one person, that you had planned to say for a while, but because you really care about that person you don't want to hurt them and thus can only imagine different ways to say it that you won't actually say because even though they're extremely transparent about things that you do that they don't like you can't be the same way because if you even think that someone is upset with you you spiral into an anxiety attack and fear you're going to lose them?
or is that just me