I can't anymore, I've been trying to act happy again. It's tiring, to try to pretend something that you're not. The person who I once was slowly fades in the distance.
I get these random intrusive thoughts, thoughts about killing myself. I can't sleep at night knowing that the next day is the same. My brain keeps telling me to grab a knife, scissors, anything to hurt myself with just to make the stress disappear.
It won't stop.
It won't go away.
Changing, again. Sometimes its hard to change yourself as a person, yet so simple to change yourself on the internet. Just change your name, bio, and your done. As simple as that. And that's what I'll do, change my name, bio. That's all it takes.