-zyxie

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Hurtful things I heard from my parents and everybody else, but most of them are from my parents:
          	
          	• You're so dumb, why cant you get it right?!
          	• She/he is better than you!
          	• Why can't you ace in that subject, look at her/him she/he aced it pretty good!
          	• If only I could kill you!
          	• You're so useless!
          	• Why can't you do it well?!
          	• Doctors supposed to be treating and caring people right?! Then, why can't you at least take care of your mother/father?! You want to take medicine in the future but you can't even take care fo your own parents! (My parents said this to me always, I didn't get to hear it from other people)
          	• You're so ugly!
          	• Your face is so wide!
          	• What an attention-seeker ARMY! 
          	• Why are you so lazy!
          	• See?! Because of that Kpop group, your grades went down (it's not about them, it's just I'm not used to this kind of learning)
          	
          	There are many more actually but I can't write any further because my parents are just beside me, I don't want them to find out about my depression, anxiety, stress, and insecurity.
          	
          	I'm sorry if I just randomly posted this, I just wanted to at least open up a little.

-zyxie

I wrote it in parts because it's too long
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-zyxie

@btsisours If some of you want to ask some question, I will answer some of them.
          	  
          	  1. Yes, I got hurt but not by what other people say, but because of what my parents say to me.
          	  2. About the BTS accusation for my grades, I didn't watch any related BTS videos actually everytime there's an exam or when studying, I'm actually finding myself a video or app that helps me calm a little for my negative thoughts, but then if I found something, after using or watching it, if it's an app I would instantly delete it, since my phone is an old model and doesn't have any hide apps and I wouldn't want them to suspect anything if I download an app hider that's why my father would say I watch videos about them is because the data would ran out before it's expiration (our WiFi is not like others, we are the ones who buy load for it), and if it's a video, I would delete the history because my father had my account and they would know what situation I am in and besides even if I would make another account he would know it since from what I just said earlier he would monitor the load's percentage and it would be more suspicious if the WiFi's load got reduced but there's no sign of me opening youtube with that account.
          	  3. Many of you might ask why wouldn't I tell them about this, it's because of the following: a. I'm scared if they would scold me like, "it's not the mode of learning's fault but yours" and my other things (I think negative thoughts more often); b. My friend's friend tried it but her/his (I don't want to reveal the gender) parents didn't even care, and it made me think more negative.
          	  
          	  So, if you have questions please feel free to ask, I wouldn't mind :)
          	  
          	  And about the update, I'm sorry, but it may take long, since, you know what I mean.
          	  
          	  Sorry for the sudden outburst
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HEEWWWWOOO 
          How u doingg??? ( ღ’ᴗ’ღ )
          Thanks for the follow ❤(〃◠◡◠〃)❤ 
          Hope u will have a great day♡♡♡
          Take care ❤
          Stay safe❤

-zyxie

@SOOBINsEXPERIENCE hewwooooo to you too~
            I'm doing greater than usual, you?
            No problem
            You too~
            Take care and stay safe, always wear mask whenever you go out
            ❤❤
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I love you babes♡

nsfwyeager

@btsisours awesome and that's okiii♡♡
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-zyxie

@taesshands sure, sorry for the late reply I was playing with my cat eheh
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nsfwyeager

@btsisours ofcccc♡ bmf?♡♡♡
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-zyxie

this message may be offensive 
Hurtful things I heard from my parents and everybody else, but most of them are from my parents:
          
          • You're so dumb, why cant you get it right?!
          • She/he is better than you!
          • Why can't you ace in that subject, look at her/him she/he aced it pretty good!
          • If only I could kill you!
          • You're so useless!
          • Why can't you do it well?!
          • Doctors supposed to be treating and caring people right?! Then, why can't you at least take care of your mother/father?! You want to take medicine in the future but you can't even take care fo your own parents! (My parents said this to me always, I didn't get to hear it from other people)
          • You're so ugly!
          • Your face is so wide!
          • What an attention-seeker ARMY! 
          • Why are you so lazy!
          • See?! Because of that Kpop group, your grades went down (it's not about them, it's just I'm not used to this kind of learning)
          
          There are many more actually but I can't write any further because my parents are just beside me, I don't want them to find out about my depression, anxiety, stress, and insecurity.
          
          I'm sorry if I just randomly posted this, I just wanted to at least open up a little.

-zyxie

I wrote it in parts because it's too long
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-zyxie

@btsisours If some of you want to ask some question, I will answer some of them.
            
            1. Yes, I got hurt but not by what other people say, but because of what my parents say to me.
            2. About the BTS accusation for my grades, I didn't watch any related BTS videos actually everytime there's an exam or when studying, I'm actually finding myself a video or app that helps me calm a little for my negative thoughts, but then if I found something, after using or watching it, if it's an app I would instantly delete it, since my phone is an old model and doesn't have any hide apps and I wouldn't want them to suspect anything if I download an app hider that's why my father would say I watch videos about them is because the data would ran out before it's expiration (our WiFi is not like others, we are the ones who buy load for it), and if it's a video, I would delete the history because my father had my account and they would know what situation I am in and besides even if I would make another account he would know it since from what I just said earlier he would monitor the load's percentage and it would be more suspicious if the WiFi's load got reduced but there's no sign of me opening youtube with that account.
            3. Many of you might ask why wouldn't I tell them about this, it's because of the following: a. I'm scared if they would scold me like, "it's not the mode of learning's fault but yours" and my other things (I think negative thoughts more often); b. My friend's friend tried it but her/his (I don't want to reveal the gender) parents didn't even care, and it made me think more negative.
            
            So, if you have questions please feel free to ask, I wouldn't mind :)
            
            And about the update, I'm sorry, but it may take long, since, you know what I mean.
            
            Sorry for the sudden outburst
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