𝕼𝖚𝖊𝖊𝖓♡𝕭𝖊𝖊

So this was three days ago.
          I'm working at the Medieval Fair as I did last year.
          
          And we have a show next to our stand. When the Medieval Fair is ending, they do a song with cheers using their drinks.
          
          I wasn't out there to do it.
          
          But at my stans, a little girl came up to my stand and asked if we could cheer. And I was up to it and grabbed my cup, then her little brother came up to also do cheers and I was so happy. Kids make me so happy.
          
          Two days ago, tho, when it was ending.
          A guy came up to me and asked abt my ice cream stand, and I answered whatever question he had, don't remember. But he was just like 'okay'. He then asked how old I was, and I told him I was 18. He thought I was 15. Then he asked abt my height so I simply told him 5'6.
          
          He was then like DAMMIT, I'm 19 and shorter than you!
          
          I found it funny. We cheered before he left. The dude was nice lol.

Bruh, Skullgirls is making many pallets that make me squeal.
          They just added D.Va for Cerebella and Vaggie for Fukua, this game has so many skin references and I want more.
          
          We have Sans for Marie, Shrek for Beowulf, Mike and Sully for Cerebella, Wario for Big Band, Cuphead for Peacock, Zombie and Enderdragon for Squigly, Tracer for Ms Fortune, R-Dash 5000(So nostalgic, messed up, and sadly funny) for Robo Fortune, Dio for Eliza, Nezuko for Squigly, MHA one that I don't know the name of for Ms Fortune, Ms Joy for Valentine, Mercy for Valentine, Kakashi for Valentine, Heavy for Cerebella, Peach for Parasoul, Amy for Umbrella...
          
          So many. I want them all. </3
          Yet it's so hard.

I've noticed a few people tend to check up on me, and I never do the same.
          
          So I just got to say, I want to. But I have no idea what to say, and (ACTUAL) anxiety is painful. I'd love to talk, but I have a hard time doing that.
          
          Sooo... Sorry abt that. T T
          Don't take it offensively, I'm just awkward.

I've never really admitted my age.
          I kind of lied at the beginning because I felt like I'd be ignored if I said my true age.
          But now, I'm 18.
          
          I had my open house last Sunday and my dad made me cry.
          
          I was putting a bunch of young photos of me on it a poster. And my dad was asking why I didn't have pictures with his dad. (The only grandparent I knew). Which I actually got to see my dad's mother for the first time since I was a baby.
          
          Anyway, he then got on his phone, he started showing me pictures. A few photos later, I started crying out of nowhere and he had to hug me and try to reassure me that he was still there.
          
          I cried 5 times at my open house... All five being about my grandpa. Two of them being how I wish he could see me now, that I'm putting more effort into things and have not been as much as a brat as I became around the time since I was taking the medication that made me threaten others or literally attack... Etc.
          
          He had to end seeing me like that.
          
          I think the song Happier from Marshmello was around his celebration of life and my sister showed me the song and music video like a week after my grandpa's death. That song is so beautiful but painful.
          
          So I pretty much always cry when I hear the song.
          
          I just felt like venting abt this.

My mom listens to Hazbin Hotel songs in the shower and at work 24/7.
          What have I done.
          She watches the show more than me now.

Happy belated birthday!
          I'm so sorry I missed it. I've been mentally strained lately, and I forgot. But that's no excuse.
          I hope you had a wonderful birthday, and that you had a chance to see the aurora borealis.

I've noticed Dms have been taken away.
          
          A part of me doesn't feel bad lol.

1 more day.

Two more days.

3 more days.