in the end, you’ll always have been my biggest inspiration. the very first person who truly inspired me to continue doing what i loved most—hell, i didn’t even know i loved it so much until you gave me the balls to keep going. you’re the reason i get to spend my summer days bumming it out while blasting silver springs on loop and writing everything that comes to mind. you are the reason i look for beauty in the mundane nooks and crannies of this universe. i still remember when you first commented on one of my chapters saying my writing is incredibly poetic and by then, i’d never even considered such a thing to be possible. you’ve lit a gorgeous blue flame in my heart, and everyday i am eternally grateful for you. i love you so much, literally everything. the goofy sex jokes, the guitar in the backdrop of your life, your day to day chronicles that you randomly hit me with, the conversations gushing over lover earrings, bullying crappy fanfiction and absolute bs smut, moses smut that made you get off of ao3, and truly, you are permanently weaved into the tapestry of my life. no matter what, i’ll never be able to get rid of the fragments of your heart that you’ve implanted into mine.
i love you so much, ball buddy. never lose your spark.