09kmula
feeling like chrisean rn .
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its been a year, i cant still cant believe it bru. everythin 4 notti .
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ion how to feel abt life like I was getting these episodes where I jst don't feel, then other episodes where I js wanna cry, now it's kinda both, I haven't relapsed. I thought abt it alot. but uhm idk my panic attacks are happening frequently and the thing is I'm doing it alone. my parents think I'm healthy and perfect. sometimes I jst wanna die, but that was a quick chat. I love you all .
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@bigyiddesz yea idk I love communicating but sometimes it's hard. and I would love to talk to you, maybe I could get your insta if you have it (this is with rizz).
09kmula
GO READ PRIDE 2 YALL ... YOUR GIRL GOT ALOT OF EMOTIONS RNN
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go read "PRIDE | NOTTI OSAMA" .... best notti book ever .... also read "the real her" its dd book best shit ever !!! (if you read them tell me how you feel abt it!!)
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MERRY CHRISTMAS YALL !!!
09kmula
quick dump abt a certain topic that I find very weird abt myself ,, if jst sitting or laying down my leg, upper arm, or hand start to shake like honest to god. I don't know why it does it jst does then to make sure it I jst stare at it (leg, upper arm, or hand) so if anyone knows maybe why that happens pls tell me cus I have no idea why it happens
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@zanyahhh that’s actually actually fucked up but i js want you to know im here if you got any questions or anything even if you just need to talk.
09kmula
@bigyiddesz I won't self diagnose but I will definitely tell my mom nd dad abt it if it happens agian. Thank you so much I appreciate it cus I've been telling my other friends abt it and there no help they say "oh. dang"
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@zanyahhh oml bc that happens to me all the time and i went to the doctors for it and turns out it correlates to adhd and or anxiety but plz don’t self diagnose cause it could fr be noting but for me it was anxiety bc i would be overthinking and shit.
09kmula
for anyone I am sadly still here. I am trying, I am trust me. I will do anything to try and keep me alive at this moment. but jst a quick update during school I wrote 4 full pages abt my ex. and I was talking to one of the staff there and she said she was proud of my which definitely made me feel better. I hope in the near future I will tell myself " I am so glad that it didn't work". I love you all and I am trying .
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I just wanna thank everyone who has helped me thru alot, and I appreciate it. you will all get somewhere and life and even tho I didn't know to much, ik that yall are kind hearted ppl. I wish nothing but the best for all of you. I love you all, but I think it's definitely my time. </3
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@zanyahhh Zan please don't, you're literally the sweetest person and you were the first person to even recognize me when I was writing my books, you are forever a sweet person and I would be heavily devastated if you were to do it.
nayahsinterlude
@zanyahhh hey, please don’t. You may think it but that’s not the only way. There are other people who love you, like me even though I don’t know you I know your probably an amazing person. And I do enjoy chatting and stuff with you and I want you to know that you are loved and that many people would be upset, just like me. Please respond <3
09kmula
so my crush is talking to her ex now.mind you she knows i like her and she's telling me abt her and her ex,honestly won't be surprised if they become a couple,even after she told me isn't ready for a relationship.
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@zanyahhh honestly it might not be the nicest thing but fuck her. If she has the nerve to do that while knowing you like her it’s wrong it’d be a whole different if she didn’t but she does and it’s wrong. Don’t let her get to you