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GUYS I USE THE WEBSITE AND MY VIEW IS STUCK ON DESKTOP VIEW HELP ME
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kyndhearted
Ok I love you
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@kyndhearted ty pookie, im hear until my parents find out about this ā ā§_ā§:: (Ā“ļ½„Ļļ½„`):: /ā ā):: /ćø_ļ¼æ / /:: (ļ¼æļ¼¼ļ¼¼ ļ¾)/:: ļ½ `-ć¤:: / ):: /ļ¼ ļ¼:: ļ¼ ļ¼:: ( ć::: |ļ¼¼ ć½:::
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I'm actually starting to forget my personality, I don't know what I do and don't like, I don't know if I like myself, what my sexuality is, what my religion is, I don't know if I like what I do and how I act. I want to feel normal but I just don't,my "personality" is so contradicting that it doesn't even make sense to me anymore. I can't look at my room because I don't know if I like it at all and I'm crying for real for the first time in months. I always do what other people want and think I should do because I'm the easy child, I'm not difficult, but when I'm given choices I can't even make them
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@Rye_The_Demon ty, I feel better today and I'm gonna try and learn stuff about myself. I'm also going to try and stop worrying about other people over myself and take a break from pleasing people
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| @0_-smiley-_0 | Aw.. honey darling, itās alright to not know who you are yet. Thatās how I felt for a while and sometimes I still feel like that. Iām still questioning my sexuality and my religion as well. I only know some things about myself at the moment. Iām glad that youāre doing better after talking to someone! <3
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I'm feeling a bit better, my friend really helped me understand a bit and I'm gonna use a self care app so I can hopefully regain motivation
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Happy Thanksgiving darling! Hope you have a wonderful day!!
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@Rye_The_Demon happy thanksgiving! Sorry for the late reply, I haven't been able to get alone time all day lol
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Do y'all think I should change my profile to be Kokushibo or keep it as Muichiro?
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this message may be offensive
JUST REMEMBERED MUICHIRO DIES AND NOW I CAN'T STOP FUCKING CRYING KAHIFBEUSBFGSJXBRJNDHISBZHDHD
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By crying I mean a single tear falling while I have all the other qualifications for crying because I just can't cry much
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I haven't cried in months and now it feels so weird to cry, especially over a fictional character, a fictional character I would die for that is
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Don't you just hate is when you get a crush on a girl knowing she doesn't like you because she likes a boy and that you'll never end up together but you can't get rid of the crush? No? Ok
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I hate when that happens. It happening with me right now, except with a boy. This boy seems to like another girl.. but- he also acts as if he likes me as well and me being an overthinker canāt stop thinking about it T^T
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WASSAP BESTIE!!! HOW ARE YA DOING?
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@Rye_The_Demon I'M GOOOD, I have to preform a monologue for theatre either today or tomorrow though
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(VENT!)
Sometimes I feel like how I feel and act isn't valid.
I've seen many things online about people with strict/toxic parents and how that's shaped who they were and given them unhealthy habits, but I have good parents and a great life compared to most and I relate.
I also used to S.H, I had no reason, I just liked the feeling. I never depended on it, it never helped me when I was upset, I just liked the feeling of it.
I freak out about small things that won't affect me much (like missing the bus) but I didn't care much when my grades dropped to C's and F's last year.
I wake up at 5 am for school and my parents have to wake up at that time to walk me and my brother to the bus stop. The more they do for me the more I feel like a burden and keep my problems to myself, even when they should be addressed.
Sorry if this is random, this thought has just been building in my mind for months and I needed to tell someone, someone who doesn't know me irl and can't tell other people I know
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@Rye_The_Demon wow, it really feels good to be comforted, thank you bestie for the comfort and for just being an amazing online friend ā¤ļø
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ā¦Oh darling-
Youāre not a burden.
Iāve only SHāed once, and that was when I realized how painful it is to do that stuff. Speaking from a perspective of a toxic mom but amazing dad, I kinda understand what you mean. I wake up a 6am-6:30am so I can get ready for school, let my chickens out, along with many other things while my Ma sleeps. Iāve always had to take responsibility amongst my family, because I donāt think my Ma is mentally okay, and my dad is always at work. You donāt have to have a reason every time you do something, sometimes you just do it without thinking. Iāve always hated talking about my feelings with people I know, thatās why I made a vent book.
Just know that if you ever need to talk to someone, Iām always here to listen! I will be the online best friend you need!
YOUR AWESOME, AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!! I LOVE YOU (platonically) BESTIE!! <3333