oн, looĸ aт yoυ

i'm a failure.

fuck it

uhh sometimes sleep's the best medicine

ahhh i hate this acc, bAD MEMORIES

sometimes i try not to care, try to ignore the fact you're doing not good and may need someone to talk to -- always blaming myself in silence, I shouldn't care like this, right?
          
          Maybe I'm too caring, but she's still important in some way, I didn't leave her behind with hate, I've never really hated her. Why shouldn't I care then?
          
          She saved my life once, hopefully someone will save her's.

don't fucking kill yourself,
          d o n ' t  leave, 
          you're worth it to live,
          to be happy,
          to smile & even finding the right one.
          
          Hurting people (or mostly loved ones) is something everyone will experience multiple times in their lifetimes, there's  n o t h i n g  you should blame yourself for, it's totally human.
          
          don't leave, just don't. 
          don't let the bad thoughts getting the control over you.
          
          live.

hello bulimia,
          hello anorexia,
          hello self harm,
          hello suicidal thoughts,
          hello broken heart,
          hello depression,
          hello anxiety,
          hello smoking,
          hello alcohol,
          hello laxative,
          hello loosing everyone i loved,
          hello fake smile,
          hello lies,
          hello binge eating,
          hello skipping school and therapy,
          
          fuck.
          everything just got worse.
          
          hopefully she's doing better than me.