im not back but i wanted to say something: yes, i do miss my friends here very dearly. it almost makes me cry. it really touched me how my friends miss me and care about me. we were not just friends, we were like a family. they were my safe place. they made me laugh and helped me pass my dark days. our bond was something special. i cant describe it with words.
and i can't go back, im sorry. no matter how much i miss them, i can't. i'm not available here anymore. i don't have the mental energy to be here and reconnect with the amazing people i met here. i'm trying to focus on my health and school and that doesn't always go well. but im trying. being here was certainly a wonderful experience because i met some wonderful people. but now those memories have become something like the moon, something to admire from afar.