Oh yes, all the time since I was 13, even thought of killing myself because of all the stress and anxiety thinking about the future, I thought of job, environment, lifestyle, and moving places. I had my life written out, I know what I’m gonna be and I know what the cost of it is, but I just can’t… cause I’m not smart enough, I want to study but I can’t get the motivation to… I even thought of a plan to kms, did research, and brought the products.. but I didn’t cause I thought of what amazing things could happen in the future...
Thank god I haven’t been thinking about this for quite a while but now, once I’m mentioning this, I’m starting to tear up rn, it’s not good to stress, you might be so sucked up in your thoughts that you might kys one day, so just try not to think about it, you still have 4 years, and a lot can happen in 4 years, so pls, you can think about it but don’t think till you’re stressed out. it’s horrifying...
It's not fun.