Riley

Paparazzi should be illegal just sayin

I love chocolate with a burning passion it's just MMM

July of 2020 my mom came home from her night shift with a 4 week old kitten that she had found on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere. It was malnourished, shivering, and covered in flees. I woke up to her holding it and I washed the flees off, bottle fed her, warmed her up, etc. I named her Jasmine but Jazzy for short. I was a dumb middle schooler and after that did things like birthday parties for her and we had matching Halloween costumes (we won the contests, obvi.) I got a job and payed for everything from spaying/shots to food and toys. When she got shot in her leg I took the bullet out and did her stitches (we have a farm with a lot of animals so I had experience,) and I raised her into a full grown cat.
          
          I have anxiety and she always helps me calm down by laying on me and and just being there and idk but being with her always helped me calm down and be at peace. I can’t ever sleep well unless she’s here with me like always.
          
          Last week she went missing and we’ve been keeping our eyes open and putting up posters everywhere, searching all day for her and keeping her spot outside full of hay and dry. Today while walking my dogs I found her body torn to pieces and I could barely even tell it was her, but it was definitely Jazzy. 
          
          Anyways, just putting this on here cause I have this stupid journal that I write down everything about my pets and stuff with their death dates but I cant bring myself to open it rn so just putting this on here so I can look back at the date and stuff later. Have a great day y’all.

I'm hungry

There's this nutrition class my mom wants me to take and a requirement is that I research eating disorders/anorexia and the impact it can have on someone so now I gotta act like I have no idea what this is or what it's like 
          
          “Oh ReAlLy that's crAzy I haD nO iDeA sOme PeOplE do ThIs! I'm soooo glad I have great eating habits and an amazing self-image!” 

My landlord came over today unannounced to look at some electrical issues in the house or whatever and I was with my mom but she walked away to grab something leaving me alone with my landlord that's always a bit TOO nice if yk what I mean. 
          
          Well, I was wearing a spaghetti-strap top and he wouldn't stop glancing down at my boobs while talking to me. Well, apparently my brother asked his best friend that was over to go out to my mom's car to grab his charger or something so when he came outside he saw us. 
          
          He notices the situation and slides his jacket off discreetly and walks up to me where the landlord finally notices him. He says “Hey, your brother wants you inside. Also, it's way too hot out here. Can you hold my jacket while I grab his shit from the car?” before I can take it, he drapes his jacket over my shoulders. I walk into the house and ask my brother what he wanted and he said that he never asked for me.
          
          ANYWAYS AND HIS FRIEND IS KINDA HOT TOO WITH THE FLUFFY HAIR I FEEL LIKE IM IN A WATTPAD BOOK TBH

When I was a kid, I always wished that if I were to die prematurely that I’d be murdered because then it would be a mystery and that's kinda cool. Also, I wouldn't die at the hands of someone innocent, like in a car accident. If someone were driving and not paying attention and killed me in the collision then that'd suck. I hate to be the one that screwed them over, BUT if it's a murderer then they knew what they were doing and deserve to spend life in jail so ya 

UHM SO ANYWAYS JUST PUBLISHED THE FIRST CHAPTERS OF MY FIRST BOOK ANDJENWKJSJSJW
          
          I hope y'all get the pun in the title

Crying to the song Freaks by Surf Curse and my parents screaming at each other for background noise vibes

AHHH YOUR READING LIST IS CHEF KISS BRO AHHHHH