I hate that I fell in love with someone who's gonna be leaving soon. Hopefully, he'll be back tho, there's a possibility he's gonna be back, but it still hurts. I wish I could stop loving him, but for some reason, I can't. There's something about him... it's indescribable. My family doesn't accept him, unfortunately, since they don't want their grandkids to be black, which gets me so mad, like why in the fvck would that make a difference, if I love someone I should be allowed to love them because I love them, not by the color of their skin. My mom's reason is slightly different and I understand her reason but come on mom, I love him. My mom's reason is actually reasonable she said "I understand that right now you love him but you're not gonna last since you guys will be in high school next year. Then there's also the fact that he's black, every Mexican family looks down on your kids if they're black and not just the fact that they're gonna be looked down upon from your family, they're gonna be looked down upon from society, there still are people who are racist everywhere you go." but in Spanish and like, I get that, I really do but I can't just stop loving someone who I've loved for a while now because you said I shouldn't. No matter what race my kids will be mixed with, I'll love them no matter what and I'll protect them at all cost and I'll make sure to raise them right. I just want my kids to have parents who won't separate because I didn't have that and now I'm screwed up mentally. I'm sorry for ranting I just had to let it out, ya know...