I don't mind

do you know what is the funny thing?
          i was dancing from happiness while i was walking to the living room, my feelings can't be expressed by words it was so obvious from my walk my big smile, my sister saw me she said have you just wake up? are you still dreaming?, i said confidentiality no, I'm not dreaming, with a shy in my face , i thought it's real , i have trusted you. 

again it's just my mind my limited thoughts,
          the truth will always be
          ( nobody loves you)
          he is a lying  

now i felt it stronger more than i did before  he loves me he is serious , and i love him too much more 

now i felt it stronger more than i did before  he loves me he is serious , and i love him too much more 

i may regret it, but i already did, i have nothing to do now , just to worry and to over think. 

God i love you 

God, am i gonna br thrown in the hell because i love Geo? 

I'm sorry God that i love Geo, 
          I'm sorry that i think of him alot, 
          I'm sorry that he is atheist, he doesn't believe in your present, 
          I'm sorry that he is a drunker, smoker, bad student,
          I'm sorry that he dance with so many girls but not me, 
          I'm sorry that i love him even if he doesn't, 
          I'm sorry that I'm not perfect muslim, but i don't want to be thrown in the hell because of my love for Geo
          I'm sorry that i couldn't cut my relationship with him, i swear i have tried soooo many times and i haven't succeeded with any, God you know how much it was difficult for me , God you are the only one who knows how much i have cried for that, you know how many days i was awake thinking about it ,  it had been one year already and it still feel the same for him, but with pain and worry 
          God I'm sorry that i wish to hug him, to be close to him,
          I'm sorry that i love Geo ☹️
          me siento muy mal 
          

i was so excited, 
          but you have ignored me