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it's been about a couple of months & in all honesty sm has happened , i went on my first plane down to chch & wow the beauty of new zealand amazes me sm  ! literal loved the feeling of seeing outside of auckland for once especially after being stuck at home because of this pandemic now it seems as if everything isn't entirely normal, anyways my bestfriend since primary school is turning 18 on sunday  & i am so excited for her, she deserves the world like man no words can explain how grateful i am to have her <3 i planned a full on date on saturday just for her & i cant wait to see her. Just thinking about seeing her in 2 days is making me excited  anyways that's all for now, thank you for listening hehe  
          (i have gotten a bit better at these conversations lately only because looking back at my old conversations makes me feel so embarrassed for talking & typing like that, like omg )

It's me again, wow it's been 2 years  anyways I feel great officially 18 years HAHAAHAH I feel so old! Had a job but they fully let me off cause the job was far away from where I stay so I'm looking for a job now & I'm learning to drive lmaooo, ALSO OMGGGG HAHAHAAHAH I ain't talking to anyone and it honestly feels so good been like about 5-6 months or so and wow I feel so free HAHAHAAH these books are keeping me good tho & making me feel so many things! 

Wow it’s nearly th end of 2019,, so when 2020 comes I owe myself a lot as I wasted heaps ov my time ‍♂️ honestly idek myself so imma treat myself like gold ♥️ && best believe imma be poppin when I come back to school  so w that mindset I’m off w positive vibez  goodnight x

So like life's a bit of a mess but I hope for sure it goes well, anywayz I like peaches more now mainly because of things or current events that took place !! && I'm falling again but then again I don't want too because I'm scared of getting hurt... Again cos I really don't wanna get hurt, && htg I'm finishing my studies I just need a couple more to go n we done for th term x anywayz I'm off going to read ma book ❤ 

Overall it was a goodnight x honestly am tired but I k o if I sleep I'll sleep in !! N I can't afford to redo level 1 anyways goodnight x !! God bless your days † x

Anywaysss the boy that was my age...well around my age maybe 1 year older I think well yeah he kept staring at me while I wasn't looking but I could see him from the corner of my eye n it was so cute cos when I looked at him I smiled n he smiled but looked away it was just overall cute  after all that we went to eat our food n I said my goodbyes to Levi n hugged him !! Also I saw Gene it was good seeing him since I haven't seen him since my tour around his university from my school, it was good cos he was doing fellowship n doing praise n worship at the night markets it was great, really missed him thoo x after awhlie me n my siblings were ready to go n we waited at the bus stop waiting n when the bus arrives I went to step in but missed a step n it was so embarrassing honestly I face planted n I had food in my hands n the bus driver was asking if I was alright n that n then said “ Ahhh, too much food ayyy ” Omgggg I was dying 

n while we went looking around I went to this Asian stall that I always use to go when we lived out there right.... Well I went to get dumplings n there was the 2 boys that I always saw serving me n the mother too well they were there n the two Asian boys were looking at me n idk if it was because they remembered me or that I looked different because back then I dressed a bit ugly n my eyes brows were trashhh n my face was chubby but now my face got the chubbyness away n my eyes brows are nice n my style of dressing was good because I wore this poker dot sleeved V shirt w 2 ties on the side that you could tie in a bow n blue jeans that fitted perfectly w white shoes n my hair was in a low tied up bun while I had my necklace on w mascara n Vaseline on n damn I looked good because I paired it up w a black small back pack that asians kinda use n it was so cute because it matched w my outfit n oml I was stunning....

Omgggg so like on Saturday I went out w my siblings right well 3 of them n well we went out to the night markets in Pakuranga n the trip there was actuals fun it just was so much money honestly anyways I texted my friend to tell him I'm coming out there in if he wants to come he can meet me there n he texts back saying he's coming, anyways while we were on the bus these boy Asians that looked around 16-17 were on there too n there was 1 particular person in that group that caught my eye n gosh he was just so cute n like me n him like stared at each other for a bit til we got to the night markets n his group of friends jumped off too man he was cute. Anyways as we went in I met up w my friend Levi n we were looking around while we had food n boba tea in our hands just talking about random stuff yeahhh..
          

Wow last year went so fast.... Anywayzzzz I haven't really posted up much on here mainly because I forgot my password so I used my other account ;) anywayzz a lot has happened the last few months/weeks :( n honestly I don't know what to say really, but all I kno is that if god wants to lead me or show me or even use me he will in his own time n at the right time too x I'm just so happy but tired at the same time too because it's like 1:05am in the morning n I gotta get up early in the morning  but wehhh anywayz stay safe be blessed Goodnight !! :)

Listening to BTS music, Helps me a lot like literally I'll be all upset or mad but then when I listen to BTS or Watch there vids I get so happy, its great coz at least something makes me happy n keeps me happy it's also a comforting thing that I love // I also Love ready Books they just are my inner peace in all honesty n I can even read so many book that I'll stay up all night to finish it ikr I just love Reading I know it soundzz weird but I van go on for fays ready so many book hehehe rn I just fished a book n it's like 3:18 am in the morning so I practically am obsessed w BTS n Reading book !! Anyways I'm tired so GoodnightZz Everyone Xx