13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Hey, is anyone awake? I need someone to talk to. I'm not well im the head and I need someone to talk me out of it. Please- I'm crying in bed and having thoughts. I need help.

PigeonGirl357

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky i'm rlly sorry that happened to you. if it's possible, maybe you can find a way you can see both? (visiting on certain days, for example). i hope things will work out :(
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BigSisterTwelve

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky you shouldn’t have to pick sides. That’s stupid. I hate that. Hate. I’m so sorry
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

@BigSisterTwelve 
          	  
          	  My mom and dad got upset with me during dovorce proceedings because I can't pick sides for the life of me. And then my mom changed her phone number, so when I called her after work, (cuz its over at like 10pm amd its so dark and I have to walk to the parking garage) it immediately failed and I thought she blocked me. So I freaked out bc I walked by myself and my car's far away, and I was scared smth happened to her. 
          	  
          	  Dad wasnt home when I got there and she refused to talk to me that whole day. So I went under my bed and had a panic attack. I'm okay now.. ish..
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Hey, is anyone awake? I need someone to talk to. I'm not well im the head and I need someone to talk me out of it. Please- I'm crying in bed and having thoughts. I need help.

PigeonGirl357

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky i'm rlly sorry that happened to you. if it's possible, maybe you can find a way you can see both? (visiting on certain days, for example). i hope things will work out :(
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BigSisterTwelve

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky you shouldn’t have to pick sides. That’s stupid. I hate that. Hate. I’m so sorry
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

@BigSisterTwelve 
            
            My mom and dad got upset with me during dovorce proceedings because I can't pick sides for the life of me. And then my mom changed her phone number, so when I called her after work, (cuz its over at like 10pm amd its so dark and I have to walk to the parking garage) it immediately failed and I thought she blocked me. So I freaked out bc I walked by myself and my car's far away, and I was scared smth happened to her. 
            
            Dad wasnt home when I got there and she refused to talk to me that whole day. So I went under my bed and had a panic attack. I'm okay now.. ish..
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Guys.. I.. I finally finished my college Junior year. I'm a Senior now..
          
          ...and.. I got really excited to tell my mom...
          
          ..she wasn't all that excited.. she probably had a bad day.. 
          
          But.. instead, I got talked to about my ongoing issue about how I can't cook or maintain my room.. and..
          
          I dunno.. I just feel... drained.. like its pointless to try.. 18 years old.. about to graduate from college.. .. and my mom just.. she's the best.
          
          ...but it hurt.. that despite not being able to have summer break because she needed me every night. Or that I'm in the middle of my parents divorcing.. or that my car has no heat since winter started and I've driven to school in freezing temps. Or that everyone vents to me now. Or that I've managed to pass all my classes with good grades. And helped my two brothers with both of theirs in the process.. Or was working every weekend because my classes were everyday.
          
          ...that it.. its wrong that I was too depressed to clean my room, (its not even that messy really, most of whatever's messy is my sister going through my stuff and leaving it there). Or I was too busy to learn how to cook full course meals. That I apparently don't know how to be a woman.
          
          What teenager in the middle of 5 courses alongside learning 2 others, one of which is whole new language, is LEARNING how to cook?! What adult in the middle of all of that can clean their room when they've never had this all happen before?!
          
          My mom can do it cuz she's awesome, she's amazing.. but it hurts that I cant do the same and that she expects that.
          
          I feel horrible. I'm overreacting... and I'm crying in my bed even though I was so happy this afternoon..
          
          I don't wanna blame her.. but I don't know what I'm doing wrong..

Tanglelight

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky Maybe you're...not doing anything wrong? My mom is like this too, and I just...idk, I don't pay attention to her rambling. Then again, I don't exactly love my mom as much as you do. I wish I could be of more help, but I can lend ears for now.
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BigSisterTwelve

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@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky no one sucks at being a girl. Maybe you suck at traditionally gendered tasks, like cooking, but me too! That doesn’t make you suck at being a girl. Do you have a female reproductive system? Yes? Congratulations! You are a fine example of a woman.
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PigeonGirl357

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky it's okay, i'm probably worse at it :P (never do any chores and have no social life)
            
            don't feel that you're bad at it, at least you're trying. whenever someone vents to you, you're there to offer support. i know you're a kind person, so don't let occasional faults define you. no one's perfect, and that's okay :>
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

I promise I'm doing th Thanksgiving redraw- just getting tired.
          
          But I have discovered not only am I allergic to normal trees, fake christmas trees as well.

oyodan

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky Wow, mother Nature must hate you or something. But take your time, you deserve to rest.
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BigSisterTwelve

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky it’s okay man, take your time. My annual bst-style six is not either(neither is my commenting)
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Hptx7777

Mother nature has something against you I swewr
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Y'all.
          
          Someone made AI versions of my art. XP
          
          Its strange because I specifically told them that I'm not okay with AI art-

BigSisterTwelve

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky EXCUSE ME WHAT
            
            THATS— ugh
            
            SCREAMS
            
            i am so sorry dude
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PigeonGirl357

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky i'm so sorry that happened, you did NOT deserve that. and yeah, it confuses me how people can like AI "art" when it looks so fake-
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Its the most ugly thing I've ever seen and my mom thinks it looks cool.
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

I have a new AU that's purely comic. No paragraphs. Would you like to see?

13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Hey guys I got to play DND. Who wants to hear? :^

PolygonPages

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky Dragons. Yikes. Very entertaining. DND is peak.
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

I got to play again yesterday and I literally shocked everyone with my ability to dash across the entire board. 
            
            We got attacked by zombies and since the Paladin I was fighting with got frightened and ran off, it was me against a bow user skeleton, a melee skeleton (yes, he was in range of me, stabbed me twice.), and a zombified ogre that was twice my size. 
            
            The rest of my party was on the other side of the board (like 60 feet away), and decided that they were gonna retreat when they saw the paladin running away. So they run to this tower we were heading to and realize they left me behind because my turn is AFTER everyone's. My DM was like, "And now you've left the tiny bard elf with small legs behind to fight the oncoming zombie horde by himself. Hope you're happy."
            
            I counted the space between me and the tower provided I go around the enemies, 90 ft., my friends were around 65 ft. away. So I asked if it was okay if I dashed if I used a bonus action to shove the melee skeleton. DM said "Sure, good luck."
            
            I rolled a 20, pushed the skeleton, and Seventeen ended up just running 70 ft, passed the rest of the party, and stopped right infront of the tower. 
            
            My DM was like- "Wait, why can you run so far??"
            
            "I made him with the singular thought that he's gotta be able to hide and/or run away at any given moment."
            
            "...and so when you're about to mourn the loss of your friend, you just see him screaming and bolting past you. You'd better be happy because he was gonna die if he didn't go so far."
            
            Then we realized that one of our party members knew the zombies personally and he got interrogated by the same Paladin. Seventeen just started healing people, then noticed something odd, screamed "DRAGON", and attempted to go hide again. 
            
            Thank goodness we didn't have to fight a dragon.
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13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Somebody peer pressure me into writing the oneshot I'm supposed to finish.

13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

Oh yeah, I do gotta do that. I'm almost done ith it, I just need a break from work and school..(I go to my uni from 10-6 almost every day and then work on the weekends.)
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BigSisterTwelve

@13-A-Lucky-Unlucky come onnnn, write a oneshot, everyone’s doing ittttt don’t you wanna be coolllll
            
            I swear im alive im just buried in schoolwork give me until like thursday
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PolygonPages

TWENTY IS CANONICALLY FIFTEEN'S SECRET AGENT.
          I REPEAT, (AGENT) TWENTY / DOUBLE TEN IS CANONICALLY FIFTEEN'S SECRET AGENT.

13-A-Lucky-Unlucky

@PolygonPages 
            
            NICE LESSSGOOOO I PREDICTED YEAAAAH
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