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Oh- wow- 
          Its December 2022 and I haven't said anything or written in this for years-

hey everyone, 
          
          I decided to multi-fandom this account so you might expect different musicals/ movies/ etc fanfiction.
          
          I'm sorry for all those Hamilton fans who just wanted Hamilton content. Of course, I will still continue my Hamilton books because those are my babies and I love them with all my heart.
          
          But bare with me here!!
          
          Here's my confession/ reflection:
          I look back on my life for the past 4 years I've known Hamilton and realised I was trying so hard to live up to the expectations of Alexander Hamilton and trying my hardest to be like him, when in reality...I'm not as committed to hardwork and rising to the top as he is nor is my life the same as his. I only found similarities within our personalities. I managed to convince myself that I HAVE to be like Hamilton and that I HAVE to be lawyer like him, and HAVE to have the confidence like him. I realised that I didn't like the spotlight and that I shouldnt have forced myself just because Hamilton was born for the spotlight.
          
          But now I've realised that I don't know who I am.
          I've been so caught up in trying to be someone I'm not that I don't even know what my hobbies are. I realise how ridiculous and childish it was of me to think I could be someone like Hamilton...frankly, it's embarrassing. I was convinced I was this confident, scrappy girl who had ambitions when in reality, I had no traits of these whatsoever.
          
          I'm 16 years old now and I'm moving back to Australia. I needed a reality check that this is the age where I am going to find myself and find the things i love and find the friends I'm going to cherish. (I would like to thank Boy Meets World for the reality check)
          
          I needed to accept the fact that I'm growing up and I can't pretend anymore.

guys my obsession with Hamilton is disappearing at a great speed because I have a new obsession...Sally Face...its literally eating me alive. I even made a fucking instagram and Wattpad page for the character Sally Face. (I relate to sal out of all of them :))
          
          You guys probably don't know what Sally face is though... I don't know...
          
          I'm afraid that I might not continue writing my Hamilton books after like 4 years of being in the fandom...gosh. I haven't stopped being obsessed with Hamilton until now....WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!?!?!

Yo! I just recorded myself saying something and played it back in a male voice filter and...hear me out... I sounded hot af.. damn I'm having gender envy right now.
          
          I always think about what'll be like being a dude but then I realise that I also love being a girl... but I want to be called he/him but also she/her...I dont fucking know man. I'm bigender. But I found out that I relate to male characters in different fandoms more than female characters. I wonder if it's maybe because I have the hots for them or maybe I want to be them?? Yeah I dont fucking know.

Hello everyone,
          I've been thinking about it and finally decided to share with my YouTube channel and my Instagram!
          
          My YouTube channel name is Alexander Hamilton (How Original!) But I'll give you all the the link!: https://youtube.com/channel/UCUTBFePfhPCl3XyDSuWRLTQ
          
          My most famous video has 62K views. It's called Stay Alive (reprise) but I made you die inside all over again 
          (I have a lot of content for you guys to hopefully enjoy)
          
          My instagram user name is:
          
          imonly19butmymindisolderr
          
          Thank you all so much for your support for the past years! 
          
          Adieu
          A.Hamilton

SO. I'm listening to Til I Hear You Sing from Love Never Dies (Sequel of Phantom Of The Opera AND I FULLY RECOMMEND LISTENING TO IT T-T) and I was on the verge of crying. But then I thought about Hamilton. And then I thought about Hamilton singing this when he found out Lauren's died. And then I full on cried and died inside :> (my mind automatically tries to connect any song or show or movie with Hamilton to make it's own AU...its sad)

Hello everyone, 
          It's been quite sometime hasn't it?
          I've been busy with my exams and I have finally finished it and now I'm having my summer holiday. 
          I have finished my last year in the school that I have been in for 9 years. So now I am looking for courses to do for the next 6 months before I move to the new country. 
          I'm determined and excited to start fresh in the new chapter of my life. 
          I feel like Alexander Hamilton on his way to New York at the moment.
          
          My life in the current country I'm in was miserable for past 16 years. Depression, anger, toxic people in my life, anxiety, fear, etc. But now I'm evermore excited to start this nex part of my life.
          
          Welcome to act 1 of me! My life for past 16 years is my introduction song. 
          
          Like what the ensemble of Alexander Hamilton said: "In New York, you can be a new man"
          
          Well...in this case...In Australia you can be a new woman. :)
          
          

OH SH- HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ANGELICA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
          
          SO.
          i recently got into Lord of the Rings..(i know 19 YEARS LATE!)
          I love it so much
          
          i lowkey have a crush on sam hehe...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDER HAMILTON!

HAPPY NEW YEAARRRRRR!!!
          
          Hopefully this year will be better!! ♡♡♡
          
          ILY ALLLL