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The typos are because I Couldn’t bring myself to type it out so I used voice recording my apologies.

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And lastly, I want to send a message to every single fan out there reading this. I saw the news that we already lost one girl because of the loss of Payno. She took her own life that is unbelievably tragic and we should all be there for each other now more than ever . The boys have each other and we have them and we should have each other and they should have us to be there for them as well because we can’t lose everything because that would be the last thing Liam would’ve wanted. I hope that this pain eases cause I know the it won’t ever go away.I can’t imagine what to say more. Stay safe.❤️

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Liam,payno? I can’t begin to tell you the effects you’ve had on my life saying you’ve saved me is an understatement. I can’t begin to describe in words how truly amazing you were because it all feels like you were so much more than the words I would use to describe you. I’m not angry at you and I don’t think anyone else is. you deserved to live and I will always live with the regret of never getting to meet you and see you in person and talk to you in person and tell you how much you mattered and how much we needed you here and how you were enough. I’m sorry that you left this world thinking so many of us didn’t like you, hated you in fact. But we didn’t. we loved you. I never imagined to be speaking in past tense when I spoke about you. I believed you would grow to your 70s 80s and become a grandpa. I hope you saw peace in your last moments and that you are at peace now but all I can do is hope and pray and it hurts me that I can’t do more and I’m sorry I’m so unbelievably sorry that we could not save you. “I would drive to the end of the universe to bring you back.” is what your sister said and I could not agree more and I feel like we all relate to that because pain no you did not deserve to leave so early. Rest easy, my beautiful, precious boy.I Love You.

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I’ll be writing this in parts because it reaches the maximum 
          
          Um. So I haven’t posted about it because it doesn’t feel real yet I don’t think it ever will really process in my mind but unfortunately, this early in time we have to suffer through the loss of one of the boys and by us, I obviously mean the other boys as well. Liam Payne passed away on Wednesday, October 16, 2024. He was in Buenos Aires Argentina and he jumped off of his balcony under the influence. Allegedly, I’m speechless. There’s not much to say beyond that’s what happened again this is it processed in my brain. I’m not saying or in anyway, trying to say that that his mistakes didn’t happen because now he’s dead because what he did was horrible, but my heart cries for the beautiful precious boy that we saw. Not the lying abusive manipulator that we began to see. I get this nagging feeling that he’s just gonna post randomly throughout the day because he wasn’t part of my daily schedule so it just feels like the world keeps spinning while my whole world has just collapsed. I don’t see how I’m supposed to go about my day knowing that Liam doesn’t get to wake up and it’s unfair and it breaks me that this could’ve easily been prevented if he had gotten the help that he needed so I can’t help but feel a little frustrated not necessarily with him, but with the world because we knew he needed help and we just never acknowledged it and that has to stop these tragedies have to stop happening for us to realize what we’re doing wrong. my heart breaks for the boys for his parents who just lost their baby boy for his other family and for his own baby boy who just lost his daddy I can only imagine Bears confusion wondering why isn’t daddy back from his trip yet? if you’ve read this far, thank you I wanted you guys to see this message that I leave for Liam in case he has a chance or opportunity to hear me.