Is everything ok now, I just read your profile. If you need any type of advice then you can come to me if you like. Just message me and I’ll give my instagram if you have it. It’s easier to use Instagram to text.
1: Yay! Newbie!
2: You shouldn’t harm yourself, no matter how tempting it is. It’s not worth it. You have to strive for the future. A better future. I can’t tell you much as I don’t know everything so I’ll keep it at this for now.