1_Punkster_dude

Headlock by imogen Heap
          	
          	"Distant flickerings, greener scenery
          	This weather's bringing it all back again
          	Great adventures, faces and condensation
          	I'm going outside to take it all in
          	You say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock
          	I don't believe any of it
          	You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          	You know you're better than this
          	Wear a different pair, do something out of step
          	Throw a stranger an unexpected smile
          	With big intention, still posted at your station
          	Always on about the day it should have flown
          	You say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock
          	I don't believe any of it
          	You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          	You know you're better than this
          	Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock
          	I don't believe any of it
          	You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          	You know you're better than this
          	I'm walking, you've been hiding
          	And you look half dead half the time
          	Monitoring you, like machines do
          	You've still got it, I'm just keeping an eye
          	I've been walking, you've been hiding
          	And you look half dead half the time
          	Monitoring you, like machines do
          	You've still got it, I'm just keeping an eye
          	You know you're better than this
          	Can't make a start, got your heart in a headlock
          	No, I don't believe any of it
          	You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          	You know you're better than this
          	Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock
          	I don't believe any of it
          	You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          	You know you're better than this.."

1_Punkster_dude

Headlock by imogen Heap
          
          "Distant flickerings, greener scenery
          This weather's bringing it all back again
          Great adventures, faces and condensation
          I'm going outside to take it all in
          You say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock
          I don't believe any of it
          You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          You know you're better than this
          Wear a different pair, do something out of step
          Throw a stranger an unexpected smile
          With big intention, still posted at your station
          Always on about the day it should have flown
          You say too late to start, got your heart in a headlock
          I don't believe any of it
          You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          You know you're better than this
          Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock
          I don't believe any of it
          You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          You know you're better than this
          I'm walking, you've been hiding
          And you look half dead half the time
          Monitoring you, like machines do
          You've still got it, I'm just keeping an eye
          I've been walking, you've been hiding
          And you look half dead half the time
          Monitoring you, like machines do
          You've still got it, I'm just keeping an eye
          You know you're better than this
          Can't make a start, got your heart in a headlock
          No, I don't believe any of it
          You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          You know you're better than this
          Afraid to start, got your heart in a headlock
          I don't believe any of it
          You say too late to start, with your heart in a headlock
          You know you're better than this.."

1_Punkster_dude

@Moon14ghost Sorry sis, I changed my pfp due to reasons. But we can match again sometime soon!

1_Punkster_dude

@Moon14ghost `Hugs back and smiles` >u<
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Moon14ghost

@1_Punkster_dude Its chill, your icon and stuff thanks for telling me tho sebs^-^ *hugs*
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1_Punkster_dude

Anyone wanna join a server/chat through discord?

1_Punkster_dude

@Moon14ghost Okiii `Sobs as well`
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Moon14ghost

@1_Punkster_dude On carr? U either need a phone/laptop, Takes a while and im still working on mine bc its a template but its very hard to do, So watch a vid follow the steps bc idk how to do it *sobs*
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1_Punkster_dude

@Moon14ghost also, can ya show me how to create a intro link!?- I noticed folks has em on their bios in discord like Nat/my boo, but I wanna try to see if I can as well nwn
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1_Punkster_dude

What's good my fellow peeps

1_Punkster_dude

@1_Punkster_dude YIPPEEE
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Moon14ghost

@1_Punkster_dude oop i didn't noticed u replied, My wattpad actin up again and sure if ya white i just gots to find the other pair *sighs*
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1_Punkster_dude

@Moon14ghost yk I'm drawin' TwT also, CAN I BE THE OTHER MATCH ON YA PFP!?
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1_Punkster_dude

What about me? You claim to care how I feel. Where? When? Cuz all I see is that you don't mean to act how you act, yet you continue that. Yes, I don't mean to act like it's all about me, never want it to be always me. But when I spill how/or don't be openly towards ya, it's because whatever I have felt for ya as our problems/old habits builds up are negative comments. You're sensitive, I know that and if I try to tell you how I really feel towards ya. It affects ya even though it's the truth...I wouldn't think/feel how negative if only we worked with each other, but feels like a cycle. I'm tired of it. I wanna move away from this endless cycle and not feel the need to satisfy someone/keep hold onto saying to take care of yourself just so I can to/try to give you everything I have for ya!- now it feels like those feelings are wearing out slowly...or I have doubts I'll not be sticking around long...when I said "I love you to the point it hurts" I meant I love you, I wanna love you. But how do you expect me to if our relationship hasn't gotten healthy or felt like we have new/old issues to work on still? Yes, every relationship isn't perfect or have no problems at all. There always have to have problems every now and then, but not as much as we had since the past years. I'm tired of it, I know you do too...I don't...I don't wanna always feel overwhelmed/anxious/crash out moments. That there is unhealthy, and I know I should or am part of a toxic person within your life. If you can easily point out the problems and are tired of it, you have every right to easily say "I'm tired of this, we're breaking up" and you probably would have all the answers or evidence why and I couldn't be upset with that. I'll just except it, pick up the pieces and move up even if it hurts or been with one another since 2-3 years.

devilishdoe

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I try to give space when needed. I've tried to be the mature one. I don't want to ever push anyone down. That's not my intention. I just want to fix this issue. I want to work things out. I'm trying to. And the more I'm left with silence the more this situation worsens and I just want to fucking talk. I didn't want this to be a whole issue. I'm trying to just hear what's going on, and apologize about what I have to.
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devilishdoe

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@Moon14ghost Firstly don't make me out to be selfish because you don't know me. At all. You only know what he's said about me. I try to keep my emotions to myself half the time because I don't want him to blame himself. I've said it so many times. I never want him to blame himself and have told him multiple times I felt guilty for all the times he has. I told him I put the stuff that happened between us in the past. But when repeating behaviors still linger I do occasionally speak out. I don't push my boyfriend don't so don't say that either. I fucking love him. I'm try to communicate with him and figure out how the hell this situation can be fixed. I don't try to play victim because I know I'm not one. I told him so many times that if I make him feel a certain way to tell me. If he doesn't communicate then I don't know what I'm doing wrong and it's going to continue until I am told. Don't try to sympathize with me because I don't want to be a victim in this situation. Yet you make me out to me this attention seeking victim who wants to constantly remind him of all the bad things. I told him that he's trying. I know that he is.  Calling me a bully doesn't stop the fact that nothing in this situation is going to get better if we don't have a proper conversation with each other.
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devilishdoe

@1_Punkster_dude first of all, I've said it multiple times you can point out what I'm doing wrong and I'll fix it. I apologized on my behavior because I was aware that I was wrong. You never pointed what I did so I only did what I thought was best and tried to be the middle man in every situation. I don't attack you. I never tried to, I don't wanna nitpick I said that. I point out things you do that hurt me and us. And I told you, to do the same. I won't ever react poorly, if you said I need to work on something I told you I'd try. I'd try my best. But I expect you to do the same. You never speak out on the things I do that you don't like, yet expect me to just know?? Again I can't read your mind. I can't change the action unless you tell me but you don't. I try to listen, to understand, and if you feel like I'm not doing a good job then SAY IT. I can't know if you don't tell me. I wanna try. I have tried. I tried to communicate things without making things about myself. I don't care about me. I care about you so I try to tell you if you need help, if you need space, time, someone to talk to. If it was me I ask you if I did it, if I can change it. But you never say anything about it. I want us to work and if you even read anything i said I wanted to talk to you according to sort things out, but no. You keep ignoring me. You won't talk to me so how is anything supposed to get better Sebastian enlightened me? I can only say so much. but I can't force you to talk to me.
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1_Punkster_dude

Good morning/afternoon/evening to all my lovely peeps, how we feelin how we doinnn?

1_Punkster_dude

@HelloFellowWeirdo uhhhh I'm quite tired tbh nwn physically ofc! But ye qwp
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HelloFellowWeirdo

@1_Punkster_dude honestly so am I 
            how r u?
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1_Punkster_dude

@HelloFellowWeirdo That's good, I'm glad ^^
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IzCoast

Why thank you good sir for following moi! (im making sir a gender neutral term, sue me)

1_Punkster_dude

@hiidkwhattomakemynam *insert crying emoji*  really- nah tbh everyone is taller than me atp
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hiidkwhattomakemynam

@1_Punkster_dude FRICK YESSSSS FINALLY SOMEONE SHORTER THAN MEEEE MUHAHAHAHHAHAJAJAHAHAHJAJAJAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAH (I have issues)
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1_Punkster_dude

@IzCoast QwQ heh, nah all good don't sweat it ^^ basically all the people I know are taller than me even my partner
            
            `He chuckled as he rubbed behind his neck sheepishly.`
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