Mr. Rocket Fucking Scientist

hello gentlemen it's 5:35 am currently ‼️ I've never stayed up this late but I think it's cus of all the sugary shit I had earlier cus I was craving it 
          
          anyways even if I do eat sugar before bed it doesn't turn out to me staying up late so idk what's wrong 
          
          also found out today I might have tmj ‼️‼️ I think I've had it cus anytime I move my jaw sideways it makes a crispy sound so hurray 

hello gentlemen (/everyone) I am here to present my progress on marching band ‼️
          
          so currently out of the 4 songs we have to do, 1 and 2 are 99.8% done I js have to figure out a lil bit of it and Ive officially memorized them :)
          
          3 is 30% done I have to memorize a lot of it still but ik how to play it. 4 is the most difficult out of all of them bc as of friday, it finally occurred what everything sounded like in my brain and now ik what to play, the high notes and shit is js what is troubling me. I'm aware of the melody and rhythm now I js have to play and memorize so it's 14.5% done.
          
          and a little extra progress I've made is that I can now memorize and play the first part of it's been a long long time ^^
          
          out of all of them, 4 and 2 are my favorite to play.
          
          anyways that is the progress of the day :)

chat for all my trumpet players w braces do any of yk how to get rid of bracket imprints on the inside of lips ‼️⁉️ it'd be helpful cuz I rlly need to practice this weekend and I do not wanna go back w scars from such a thing
          
          anything would be helpful thanks :)

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          I have to go back to band next week and I haven't practiced or memorized my music at all which is bc of reasons ‼️‼️ it's ok tho we're fine

deadass my mental health is getting worse and anytime I try to talk abt the reasons of why I think it's getting worse/talking abt my mental health to any of my friends it feels like they ignore me
          
          like I was talking to one of my friends about uhhhhhh window jumping and after I said smth he was like I don't wanna deal w the grief or smth along those lines I'm like js don't think abt me then
          
          like I def feel like they think I'm joking/they're tired of hearing me talk about it all the time but I'm scared to ask for a therapy appointment :/
          
          like I love my friends but I think they're js tired of me.
          
          they're also gonna think I'm joking until I'm in the hospital for how bad it's gotten. maybe I won't fail cuz I think the universe has tried to reduce me to an atom several times. 
          
          anyways continuing I'm very tired of this 

deadass bro I fucking love capri suns
          
          I also really want dairy queen rn
          
          big back behavior
          
          oh well
          
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gng who told wattpad abt my post 

lmao might delete my account cuz lowk this app has done nothing for me and I feel like I am being forgotten ((o(^∇^)o))
          
          JK might delete tho bye bye

at least he's trying to be nice abt it but man that shit hurt.
          
          like I've been stressed 24/7 and that was the thing that fucking pushed EVERYTHING DOWNHILL 

wsgggggg I started marching band Friday and I'd say today was a lot better even tho I still don't exactly know what the music is ;---;
          
          anyways imma continue being off the grid even tho ik most of you don't care lmao
          
          also I bought dresses an shit yesterday and I felt very fancy in my red flower dress at a restaurant yesterday night ♡