[AN OPEN LETTER FOR THOSE WHO WAITED]
Hello! This is graceharem, the author of Breaking Rules and Baddest Beasts of Beauty. It’s been a while since I last posted here. Honestly, I don’t even know how to start this.
Anyways, the past few years have been rough for me. A lot of things happened that I had to fight for. I think I won’t go into the details anymore. But those rough years made me lose something I really love. Yes, I actually lost my passion for writing. I tried my best to hold on to it, but I lost to the circumstances I was in at that time.
And sayang, kasi you were there—my readers—and you all supported me. I felt it every chapter I updated way back then. Kaso, ang hirap ipagpatuloy 'yung isang bagay na hindi mo na binubuhos ang buong puso mo. So, I stopped. I started to hate writing because it stressed me out. The environment and the expectations I imposed on myself got the best of me. Hindi na ako masaya, hindi na ako nag-eenjoy. But you know what? It's funny how I still held on through those years sa pagsusulat. Na kahit I hated it, that was the only way I could express myself.
I'm really sorry for being missing in action for years. Alam niyo ba, my multo isn't a person. It's this account, all of you who supported me, the broken promises, and the books I left unfinished for years. It haunts me every time and I think it always will.
Hindi ako makakapag-promise ngayon. I don’t think I can even make one. Kasi I fear that I won’t be able to commit again, that I might leave you all hanging once more. But you know, I’m taking it bit by bit. I’m slowly falling in love with writing again this year. Hindi ko pa agad mababalikan 'yung mga books na sinulat ko way back then, but maybe in the near future, I will. Kasi kahit sina Azazel and Seraphina, minumulto rin ako.
P.S. I might change my username soon to 1ziydew. I hope you’ll still support me in this new journey. Again, I’m so sorry and thank you so much from the bottom of my heart!
