FREDSTARR🥶

I HAD A DREAM THAT I FOUND THE MOST INSANE PHOTOCARD IN A CHARITY SHOP. THERE WAS SO MUCH GOING ON IN THAT DREAM I WAS BEING STALKED BY A (maybe) CULT, AT ONE POINT I WAS HEARING SOMEONE ELSES INNER MONOLOGUE ABOUT MY JEANS AND I WAS WANTED FOR MURDER AND I HAD A MASSIVE CHICKEN COSTUME BLANKET BUT THE PC???!!?!?!?!? IT WAS YOONGI BUT IN AN RM ALBUM AND IT WAS SUCH A COOL PC MY MIND IS AMAZING BUT NOW I WILL FOREVER MOURN THE FACT ITS NOT A REAL PICTURE  also side note my phone feels like lava. might blow up. side note side note i think i might have had a pp in my dream but only when i peed??? also the weasley twins were there. weird af. 

ginger prick at college called me a retard on Thursday. him being ginger doesn’t have to do with him being a prick but i digress. i asked him if i knew him after he greeted me by my name because i genuinely don’t know him beyond him being creepy toward my friend and his response was “dont act like a retard” HELLO???? chat should i tell like a trusted adult or am i being over sensitive 

itried writing something poetic about my feelings but the truth is i just want to get him pregnant so bad 

“why cant i sleep its been 2 days” i ask myself as i drink more caffeine hit my vape think about the Very Important Thing i have to do before i sleep but dont want to do write another poem about not being able to face the truth read 4 different fics and watch 2 shows on half hour rotations avoid my sleep medication and enjoy the medication that makes me awake as a mosquito on the day before you have to go somewhere that having itchy bite marks would be a nuisance and panic about everything to ever happen as well as trying to avoid my constant paranoia that i am about to be bombed. also i can never sleep until i have washed my face but i look so sexy i dont want to wash my face

OH MY GOOOOOOODDDSSSSS CAN THE TAROT CARDS JUST PKEASE FUEL MY DELUSIONS FOR ONCE. STOP TELLING ME HARSH TRUTHS. LALALALALLALA I CANT HEAR YOU!!!!!!   

CHAT I HAD TO GET A NEW LAPTOP BECAUSE MINE CRASHED AND STOPPED WORKING AND I JUST REALISED THAT MY DUMBASS HAD THE ONE SONG I EVER RECORDED IN ENTIRETY IS ON THERE AND I LITERALLY DIDNT PUT BACK IT UP ANYWHERE ELSE. AND OF COURSE I MADE IT ALMOST 2 YEARS AGO SO WITHOUT WRITING DOWN ANY CHORDS OR TABS. im so stupid. it had a fuck ton of pictures on it too bro im so mad

i fear i have become too casual. CHAT DONT SOCIAL MEDIA DETOX YOU WILL STOP BEING WEIRD AS FUCK AND START BEING JUST STRAIGHT UP STRANGE  FIVE MONTHS NO TIKTOK TWO WEEKS NO AO3 2 HOURS NO YOUTUBE VIDEO VERY CLOSE TO MY FACE. IM BECOMING SANE. I AM HAVING MY OWN THOUGHTS. I AM LOSING THE ABILITY TO BE OBSESSIVE. 

idc santa is real. u guys just read too much smut for him to come visit i guess

i used to be insane actually. 

boo