The feeling of when you have none for those you have lost and those you will lose. You’re completely comfortable in reality of how it is at this very moment. You have no concerns if you’ll wake up tomorrow or not or if the person you hold most dearly to you will suddenly die. You’re content with the thought of death and how it will greet you one day as well as your friends and family. It feels like since you’ve been alive all you could think of is death and the fastest way to get to it. I’m so close I feel it, but I’ll be patient for as long as it takes until my appointed time. Until then…I’ll practice being alive for once.