@23corbin I know I cant convince you otherwise, but I could never hate you. If anything, I hope sometimes you hate me, just so things can be easier on you. I wish there was no hate at all truthfully. I'm sorry that I am such an imbecile and things were ever able to get this out of hand. Just know that I think about you everyday, miss you everyday, and wish I could talk to you everyday (even if it was to tell me to screw off). You're my first born son, and even if I suck at being what you need, I know in my heart you being born saved my life and I think about that everyday. I couldn't be more thankful for for the gift that you gave me, and just hope that I get to repay you someday, and for the rest of my life. Love you dude.