Ella

          If I left.
          Would it be so bad?
          Not to worry about anything else
          The stares and the hatred
          And the feeling of failure
          The feeling of defeat
          If I left,
          Things would be easy
          No more looking in the mirror 
          Hating who stares at me back
          If I left,
          My heart would be at peace
          It would get the break it deserves
          No more pain would ever get go it
          If I left,
          A person or two would maybe be sad
          But the calm I would feel 
          I think would be worth it
          If I left,
          I would be a coward 
          But if I don’t, I’ll be living in hell
          And who wants to be friends with the Devil?
          If I left,
          I’d be greeted by no one
          I’d be left to be alone
          As I always have
          If I left,
          The world would still spin 
          The sun would still shine
          The sky would be blue
          If I left,
          All those who’ve been hurt would be inspired
          They’d want to be like me
          They’d think I was in a better place
          If I left,
          I would never see all I could have been 
          All I could have done
          All I could have changed
          If I left, 
          Maybe someone’s world wouldn’t spin
          Someone’s sun wouldn’t shine
          Someone’s sky would be gray 
          But I can never be sure
          For I have never left
          
          
          Hey, guys. Little poem for you. Please tell me what you think. Or don’t . It still is a free world, afterall. 
          Hope you’re having a great day/night/life.
          -Ella ♥️

Hey, lovely people!
          Passing by to let y’all know I’ve posted a new chapter. Please take your time to read 12- Sweaty Strands.
          
          Thank you and stay lovely! ❤️❤️❤️
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I try to hate you, I really do. But I can’t, because I’m too busy hating myself, thanks to you.
          And it sucks that even when I try, I know that deep down, I won’t be able to.
          And in the end, you’ll always have something I couldn’t have. 
          So tell me, am I hating on the wrong person? Or should I focus my thoughts on something else? 
          It’s difficult when all the bad things you said to me keep replaying in my mind. 
          And now I’m supposed to just let it go.
          Forgive and forget, ain’t that what they say?
          Here’s another one: easier said than done. 
          The one thing you couldn’t kill were all my hopes.
          I hope one day your voice will leave my head.
          I hope one day when they ask how I’m doing I won’t lie when I say “I’m fine”. 
          I hope one day when I wish you well I really mean it. 
          I hope one day I’ll love myself.
          
          
          *sigh*. Okay, guys. First of all, how are you doing? (Please be honest with your question, because I actually care). Second of all, the text above was just me trying to let out some of my frustration that originated from some news I just heard about a person. But I thought I might share it with you because… well. Idk, I guess because I’m a person who likes to read some depressive shiznit and I think some of you could relate to that. Anyway, feel free to comment your thoughts, opinions, share some depressive shiznit too, whatever you like.
          Just let this space be your escape valve for a little.
          
          Stay amazing and be yourself. ❤️
          
          — Ella.

Hey, guys! (Idek who that might be, but I like to think people actually read my publications. It helps me sleep at night)
          Anyway, I wrote a poem today and I’d like to hear what you guys think of it. Let me know, please! Or not. It is a free world, after all.
          Here it goes:
          
          Beauty.
          Is it more than just what eyes can see?
          Perhaps the feeling of being free
          The leaves crunching under my feet
          Or maybe lovers waiting to meet
          Sometimes I stare ahead and see the void
          Of something beautiful that's been destroyed 
          They hear the cries and look behind
          But it seems they've just gone blind
          They don't dare stray out of line
          But your heart aches and so does mine
          Out reaches a hand that's not so far
          Could it be my missing star?
          I see the beauty as I take it
          Now I know that I can make it

Hey babe, how are you doing?

Hello, lovely people!
          
          I have (finally) updated DPM! Go check chapter 10, “Jack the Ripper”.
          
          We’re getting to the good part! ;)
          
          Please, drop by to read and leave your thoughts! 
          
          Wish you all a great day and everything!!!✨✨
          
          Stay lovely! ❣️❣️❣️

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