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i ain dead yet

BACK FROM DA DEAD!!!

void/they.

gLoss. GTBSBE D&G. i luv it all.

come and go, gain and loss. drain.

RIP Jordon :( </3 i'll miss u lone vampyr

ha pussy be hitting on another level.

my la baby prolly thought i wasn't gon' say happy birthday to ha. 
          lemme start it off right here.
          
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          lemme start off like this. when i first met you, i fucking HATED you. you were so damn annoying. i was a juice wrld anon at the time and all i would see is "jarad this, jarad that." outta all honest, i really wanted to snap ya neck at the time (still kinda wanna do it, but it's whatever i guess). every time you would text me, i would ignore you. on g, i guess if it wasn't for iyannah we prolly wouldn't be where we are now ☠️. then, over sometime you were telling me you had feelings for and allat. i kept denying the shit because i was in a relationship at the time and wanted to stay loyal and shit. i'm not gonna lie, i was kinda feeling you too, but ian wanna cause no confusion between you know who or whatever. you wouldn't give up thought (determined headass ☠️) you would let the shit slide at all. every time i would tell her "no ,ion wanna be with you" she had to go run ha mouth to ha friends and or ha message board and be like "niggas ain't shit" "he keep playing with my emotions" "i'm fucking mad right now, don't talk to me" and shit like that. i'd be sitting there laughing my ass off because this girl was really in love with me. man ion know what happened after that, but i starting to catch some feelings too osrs.
          when them feelings started gettin stronger and stronger i knew a had to let them out and tell you how i really feel.

i fell in love with you, deeply in
           love with you and i’m not saying 
          it just for the fun of it... i’m saying this because this is how i honestly feel about you. every time i look at you i just think “damn, how the fuck i ended with this gorgeous ass woman?” ☠️, you might think i’m corny ass hell for that shit, but you just gon’ have to deal with it. (: but anyway, i love the way you try to be imitating, the way you would irritate me on certain days, the way we would always joke around with each other even though we both can’t take a joke for shit, just little things like that make me happy. you’re everything to me and if i lose you ion know what i would do. i’ll prolly be sitting in my bathroom crying like a little bitch, to be honest. nobody really understands me like you do. sometimes i wonder if i’m ever good enough for you because i constantly fuck shit up and i’m sorry for that. i’ve just never been in a relationship like this before. i always think you’re gonna leave me for another nigga that’s gonna make you happier than i ever did, but you stayed. every other girl left, but no... you stayed, through thick and thin. you make me feel wanted. you just do something to me that any other girl can’t do and i can’t imagine being with anyone else other than you. i put you above everyone else. you’re the most important female to me right now and it’s gonna stay that way. i only want you, no other female can take your spot. no matter how much i play around and say “oh such and such pretty” they can’t compare to you, you’re the only one who has my heart and i’ll kill if something ever happens to you. imma stop right here because ion wanna keep rambling and i didn’t want this to be too long. -semaj,

listen. although you and i have our moments, nothing and i mean nothing is gonna make me hate you or make me want to stay away from you. you’re addicting babygirl. i can’t get enough of you. you do something to me that i haven’t felt in years. i’m a soft motherfucker when i’m around you ☠️. there’s never a dull moment with you. you always seem to make me smile when i’m mad or “in my feelings” as you call it. you’re very special to me and i don’t wanna lose you... as much as you irk my nerves i still put up with you. you’re my baby, my world, my everything. i’ll die if anything happens to you. i care a lot for you babygirl. i don’t wanna see you sad, hurt, mad, even if i made you feel that way. you’re way too beautiful for that. every single moment with you is special. i’m glad to call you mine. i don’t know what i would do without you. you see i thought all girls were the same. every time i got in a relationship, they would fuck me over. they didn’t care. they was using me. that’s why sometimes i do the things i do so i won’t get hurt. i’m was tired getting my heart broken. i felt i was shit. nobody was really down for me except for my sisters and my momma. i used to keep everything bottled up in me and didn’t wanna let anyone in. i’m not even gonna lie i still do it from time to time, but literally that all stopped as soon as i met you. you wasn’t like one of people where i could just get away from, you basically forced me into being your friend. and lemme be straight up I DID NOT LIKE YOU AT ALL. ☠️. i thought you was so fucking annoying. it took me some time to get used to you. when i finally started liking you i started to develop feelings for you. strong feelings. i didn’t want nobody else but you and you know what happened after that. but overall i just wanted to say i love you and i always will. forever and always babygirl ❤️. (btw i purposely waited for you to go to sleep, that’s why i wasn’t responding ☠️) i love you so much, i really do. - semaj (10/18/18)