𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘.

GANG I HAD TO RESET MY WHOLE PHONE…

LIVE ANNOUNCEMENT:
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          Hi, babies!
          There’s something I’ve been wanting to talk about with you all. I’m not sure if I’m the only author who feels this way, but lately, I’ve been struggling with this feeling that my writing just isn’t good enough. Oh my word—sometimes it’s like this quiet weight sitting on my chest that I can’t shake off.
          
          It doesn’t help when you read other authors’ stories and their words flow so effortlessly, while yours feel tangled and unsure. You start comparing, overanalyzing, doubting every line. I catch myself thinking, “Maybe I’m not doing enough. Maybe I’m not as creative as I thought.” And that hurts, because I love writing. Creating worlds and characters feels like oxygen to me—but even that can feel heavy when self-doubt creeps in.
          
          Publishing and unpublishing becomes this endless cycle—write, doubt, delete, rewrite. It’s exhausting. Sometimes it feels like pressing “unpublish” is tearing a piece of myself away. I get so lost trying to make things perfect that I forget why I started—to feel, to express, to connect.
          
          And juggling multiple stories? Pure chaos—it’s beautiful chaos, though. Some days my creativity burns bright; other days, I can’t string a sentence together. It’s a constant battle: self vs. creativity, self vs. mind. The pressure to create something meaningful can crush the joy out of the process.
          
          But I know this storm won’t last forever. I’m learning to breathe again, to remember that every story doesn’t need to be perfect—it just needs to be real. So yes, stories are coming soon. I just need to find my balance again and fall back in love with creating without fear.
          
          Thank you for being patient, for understanding, and for believing in me—even when I struggle to believe in myself < 3.
          
          — The laboratory, 2025.

hi! you probably don't even check this account anymore but I figured it was worth the shot. I haven't been on wattpad in months, but I've recently been going back and looking through my old faves. I know only saint wasn't ever that long of a story or completed, but it was one of the works that really stuck with me on here. I was wondering if you ever plan to republish, or if there's a way for me to read what you had completed previously? your writing really was breathtaking. I do understand if it may be something you want to distance yourself from as you move forward in writing and change your style. either way I just wanted to lyk that your work was impactful. I dont remember much about the story but I remember the feeling reading it gave me and I really enjoyed it.