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Is everything alright? You have been awfully quiet

Btw congrats on 69 followers hahaha ;)

Hi. I just had a really good idea that some of you have already been telling me to do...or not just in other context- I'm going to make the Theater Girl series(sorta) into an actual book. I feel loke ypu guys would beter enjoy that and would make this more enjoyable for you to read, and easier for me. I hope.  So yeah 
          Theater Girl coming soon.
          P.S. I will be putting all of the parts out there first incase some new people come in and are like: wtf is going on.
          P.S.2. The only reason this came to mind was beaches I was thinking and talking about her to a friend so yeah 

Theater Girl pt 8! 
          Hello welcome back(I'm saying that to myself)!! It's been a while, and I'm sorry for holding off, just not too many thing have happened with this, and honesty I feel like I'm just waiting for something to happen. But I will be honest some things have happened, so Alright first you know those OBNOXIOUSLY LOUD friends that you have, that make hundreds of dirty jokes a day, too much profanity (and for me that's saying a-fucking-lot), that you have in the first place.cause they're FUCKING hilarious? Yeah, I have that friend, and she showed up while I was sitting next to her, watching others rehearse... *inhale*... me and Theater Girl-which now that I think about I should give a name...let's just use her initial- B! Me and B were sitting on her floor outside of the rehearsal area cause we weren't needed anymore and we both gave our parents a later time. So we just sat outside watching the dancers rehearse and singing backup. We talk for a but then we're just sitting there on our phones. This is where the friend comes in we talk whiles she literally right there, and eventually she hits my boot. My Doc martens......I chase her down and she hits a car with her lacrosse stick and that's where it stops. At this point B isn't there, she just saw me get up and start running after her. I come back, laughing my actual ass off cause SHE A HIT A CARRR. She comes back from apologizing to the woman who owns the car and is like "Why did you run after me??" So I go: "you disrespected my docs" and in a fake fit I take her stick and start pretending to hit her. Another, insanely innocent friend runs up and is like "ITS NOT WORTH IT" so eventually I'm just messing with the innocent friend making her think I'm hit the obnoxious friend with her own stick, and I look over to B and she's laughing....THE BUTTERFLIES DUDEEE 
          I'm probably going to make another one like an 8.somethin  <3

AAH
          Theater Girl part 7...? 
          I got he ra valentine's day gift......yeah.
          I'm not going to school tomorrow because my parents are going out for the weekend for my dad's birthday. So I got her candies/snacks that she likes and I small balloon. 
          I left it in my drama teacher's storage rooms-that's filled with props- and will have a friend(during their class) tell her to go into the storage room and get a gift, anonymously given to her. Basically setting it up so that she doesn't know it's me. But she's really smart so she may know, but I'm ready for that. Terrified. But ready. 
          Je l aime (that's french for "I love her") 
          I just really hope she likes me back, but in the note, I said "part of writing this letter is admitting to myself that you may not feel the same way" so yeah but still really scared tho, wish me luck!

My anxiety's throwing me for a loop. 
          I guess this is a bit of an update Theater Girl pt 6...? 
          So I've been trying to keep up the touching hands and stuff, you know. And she hadn't been reciprocating the way I expected her to, and I mean I know that that's completely fine, but my anxiety has been like: "No. She doesn't like you. At all." So now that's literally all that going on in my brain-like I've zoned out so many times today.
          But during the end of rehearsal, she was having a moment with her friend telling him about some stuff(I was holding the curtain closed for my friend cause she was trying on her costume, so I couldn't leave) so was just standing there. I blocked out all word distinction so all I heard were mumbles. She was about to go in to the dressing room to try on her costume, and I said "Hey I don't know what's going on- I wasn't trying hear what you saying to give you the privacy you would have if I weren't there, but I really hope you're ok" she then tells me that's she's going through it and the guys she was talking to is someone who she trusts, and a 'thank you'. Before this, I wanted.to ask her to be my Valentine, but I really care about her so I'm choosing not to because I dont want there to be more on her plate, which there clearly is quite of stuff on. I'm going to let her take care of herself and make her laugh a couple times. So yeah basically break from this tiny little series...? 

Theater Girl pt 5 
          WE'RE TEXTING MORE-we're texting more
          We texted and share pictures of the sunset on Saturday(If you live in socal, you know what I'm talking about) on Sunday. I swear I squealing the entire the entire time today.
          We had rehearsals today, I touched her hand for first time today-just saying hi-turns out she kayaks(don't ask me ask me what that is, I know what it is, I just don't know how to explain it) she cut her thumb doing it, I was very worried, seeing a band-aid on her thumb. We also made SO much accidental eye contact, like when someone feels you looking at them so they turn around and make eye contact with you? Ok yeah but I was the person that turned around!! 
          And on my way out I said bye to her by hugging her(also a first time thing) 
          Now me simping: her hands were so soft!! and warmmm!!! And SO WAS SHEEE. She's a soft hugger but still a good oneee. And I also texted her goodnight. So yeah, I'm running late to morning practice at the moment, see you! I'll update soon, hopefully!

Theater Girl pt. 4!
          She was looking at meee-
          Ok, so rehearsal, this Friday last week. I'm sorry for not updating sooner, I've been all over the place since finals week starts literally Monday(it's Saturday). 
          Alright anyways,  we didn't really talk, we were just hanging; doing what we had to do. But I did catch her looking at me a good amount of times..
          At the moment, I'm in a process of getting comfortable with the way my body looks and is. And for me being able to wear what I want is comforting and empowering. So I recently got this shirt that has a cut-out triangle-acting as a boob window. I love this fucking shirt, so I wore it. 
          We ended up finishing rehearsal earlier than we expected. And she was laying on the floor, chilling with one of her friends. I love pictures of people taken from above them laying down on the backs, and I thought it'd be a cute picture; I walk up to them and ask if I can get picture-cause you know, human decency- and her friend gets up cause she didn't want to be photographed, she stayed there. I took the picture. And I swear to GOD, I had NEVER looked at the same picture for so much time-but that's beside the point-. 
          I laced down next to her for a bit then got brought further apart cause I had to get up to help my friend with an assignment(thanks *insert friend's name here*) 
          We then eventually were all-including the director- laying on the floor, discussing what our solutions were for masks since we are still going to have then on for the play. Im laying on my stomach still being apart of the conversation meaning my elbows were keeping me up, accentuating my breasts. I look over to her cause I'm a fucking simp- And she's looking at my boobs! MY BOOBS. I- omg I'm in love.

Theater Girl part 3.5
          BRO WHAT ARE THE CHANCESSS
          Ok so I've been best friends, with my best friend for 9 and a half years now, and although we go to the same school we still hardly see each other. So, after my first period in even period days, I go downstairs to my best friend's class, and we walk in the same direction for our next classes. So anyway on our way out of their class, SHE WALKS BY!!!! I call her name(not even on purpose it just came out), and I think she hear me( my brain is like: crisis averted) and then I see her walk backwards with a "who said my name?" face. And I'm just like "oh shit" say my greetings and continue walking with my best friend....and talking about how I've never seen anyone look so good in plad sleeping pants.

Theater Girl part 3!!
          AAAAAHHH- OK
          So we had rehearsals today, and she was there.
          We were put next to, behind and infront of each other quite a bit for the dance we were learning. And while we were waiting for the dirextor to grt her shit together, she compliments my shirt(its a pride flag shirt i got at hot topic) I say "Thank you! Its very gay, like me" she says back "we love that for you" and I say back "we do!" 
          I do this thing with a lot of friends I feel comfortable with, put my chin on their shoulder(whichever that's closest), and at this point, i'm starting to feel comfortable with her so before my anxiety can tell me otherwise, i put my chin on her shoulder she doesnt move. 
          A second later i get off cause, anxiety, and she says i hit a pressure point and that it felt very nice. I then decide to use my hands. Seconds later she says that it feels very nice. Then a friend (that knows i have a crush on her) gives  me this look. A look of "wtf are you doing" with a "you know what youre doing" look. And forms a fist and shoves into my side RUINING THE MOMENT!! I got revenge tho