“I’m alright” I think I’ve said that sentence a thousand times the past 3 weeks, trying to make everyone believe it and trying my best to act happy. But to be honest, I’m far from alright. Three weeks ago I had to say goodbye to my horse after having her for 8 years, she was in too much pain and we had to put her down. It feels like I lost my best friend, the one who pulled me out of my bad times and helped me when I was suicidal years ago. And now she’s gone and I just feel empty and broken and like always, I don’t want to bother people with my pain. So here I am using my own message board as an outlet once again. I can just feel myself getting sucked back into a dark hole and I have no idea how I’ll ever get out of it.