5secondsofeline

Anxiety 1 has reached 400.000 reads. This is absolutely insane. Thank you. I’m no longer writing but still see all the comments and votes, thank you ♥️

5secondsofeline

I met a girl at uni this year and we got along great from the start and I always felt really comfortable around her but now we’re graduated and I’m starting a job 2,5 hours away from where she’s working. I always felt some sort of attraction towards her and just now we were talking about some trouble she has at work and she said she’s not into men and it made my heart sad because we’re gonna be living far away from each other. 
          And nobody knows I sometimes like girls too so wattpad is once again my only place where I can talk about this. But I’m also too scared to tell her so I’m breaking my own heart this time. 

5secondsofeline

Happy 10th anniversary to this account, that’s kinda crazy. I might not post any stories anymore now but I still read your comments and write (just nothing to be posted). Thank you for every person that has read one of my books ♥️

monkeybut2005

@5secondsofeline this is amazing congratulations
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5secondsofeline

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@ForNo0nes thank you! Maybe one day, who knows? So far I’m just writing random shit that comes to my mind and wouldn’t make sense to anyone else reading it as half the chapters/moments just happen in my head instead of writing it down
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5secondsofeline

Wattpad just gave me a heartattack by logging me out and then saying my password was wrong. I really thought I was hacked and then remembered I changed my password a few days ago.

monkeybut2005

@5secondsofeline that sucks so bad it did it to mine today so i had to call Madison and she had changed the passcode cuz it wouldn't let her in lol
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5secondsofeline

not me having to tape my charger to my phone so it doesn’t fall out. Time to spend some money for a new phone and then cry when I see my bank account 

5secondsofeline

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@LITTLEMARMAR2005 the battery is dead too and camera quality is just shit so it was time for an upgrade
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monkeybut2005

@5secondsofeline lol feel that my mom just bought a new phone because I desperately need a new one and they don't make our phones anymore so she got an IPhone and I'm getting her's.
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5secondsofeline

“I’m alright” I think I’ve said that sentence a thousand times the past 3 weeks, trying to make everyone believe it and trying my best to act happy. But to be honest, I’m far from alright. Three weeks ago I had to say goodbye to my horse after having her for 8 years, she was in too much pain and we had to put her down. It feels like I lost my best friend, the one who pulled me out of my bad times and helped me when I was suicidal years ago. And now she’s gone and I just feel empty and broken and like always, I don’t want to bother people with my pain. So here I am using my own message board as an outlet once again. I can just feel myself getting sucked back into a dark hole and I have no idea how I’ll ever get out of it.

doesntknowwhyshehere

Aw babe I’m so sorry. I lost my dog who was my best friend and also pulled me from a VERY dark place this year. Life has been really hard without him and it will be hard without your best friend but, look around you, I’m sure there are some other animals/people who love you dearly and need your love too ❤️ 
            I’m so sorry though- it’s the most horrific feeling and I’m here if you ever wanna talk. 
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monkeybut2005

Hey this is Madison I just wanted to say hi cuz I'm bored and there's nothing eles to do in this hospital. But hey if the treatment keeps working I get to go to school so theres that at least. Also my sister gave me her account info so I can read when she can't be here. (Btw we changed her account name this account used to be CoachPotato05) anyway I'm rambling so imma go now. Peace✌✌

5secondsofeline

I stopped writing some time ago but then at the start of my holiday 3w ago I randomly started writing a Harry Styles fanfic never meant for publishing and now it has around 35000 words and I don’t know what to do with it. 
          
          It has gaps in it that are too big for it to just be published like that and I don’t know if I want to fill them but at the same time it’s stupid to just leave it like that in my drafts