LongTimeNoSee

I am not dead yet.
          Just life is been a beautiful ups and downs.
          Type my fiance parents said , I heard it from him, that they had conversation about me being in for the money only.
          
          My own dad been in the hospital 3 times and even said things like "just wait and I will get the gun. So you get one less thing in life to think about" (about taking his own life. ) His hospital  tour was that he out of the blue black out and then even managed to get his ribbs. He is states of depression and anxiety and stuff. I want to be there for him but the way he is dragges me down to. And I myself are sometimes swimming for my hardest to stay alive. 
          
          My fiance telling me I have to choose between him and my own parents. They are economic not well and most time pain in the glory than anything else. The relationship is more like "can you do that. Come down and help us. Can you fix that. Can I borrow money." . Their health is bad. And well things aren't great. They are not that old even. Just been really unlucky with everything suddenly.
          
          And then it's Christmas. Going to celebrate with mine own one day and then next with his. But mine, it's feels like a lie. This part about being a perfect happy family at Christmas. And I know like my mom doesn't care about the relationship between us. She even told it to her god daughter. She doesn't care. And she said things to people I have gotten to know afterwards from them. That's not good. 
          
          We even laughed with my fiance that should maybe start celebrating Yule instead. When the days finnaly gets brighter. Celebrate that we survived the worst part and now things will get lighter. 
          
          But don't take me wrong. I do love my parents. I will cry as bloody hell when they die. But I am so disappointed in my own mother and I feel more I am parents to them than anything else. 

I am not gone.
          Alive.
          Just hands full of things.
          You wouldn't believe what I have in mind.
          I have plans on creating Elita one, her Kawasaki ninja 250R bike in real life. 
          Yes I have a bike license, hurray. 
          But oh god, think of owning a motorcycle autobot in real life. 
          *Fan screaming*
          To that I need to save up money to get her home and paint her, because they sell them green. 
          An the closest I have seen it's like 10 hour by car. (Thinking about driving and get her home... But to that I need money.
          But luckily I got my first commission on a sweater. Whoho. 
          Yes I know how to knit 
          So yes and sorry for having been gone for so long on wattpad.
          
          Sincerely your writer

I am not off totally, just figuring things out. 
          Got new job, hurray, quite my old. 
          Already liking the new place so much more. 
          The people and the company, but time will tell.
          So hopefully with new job I will have more time for what I like to do and write. The old job has been draining me, like I hade work for an other department with other people. I was energised like night and day. 
          Don't take me wrong, I like the people, but they suck my energy level flat. 
          So hopefully I will be more active here in the fall. 
          See you around. 
          

My brother passed away from cancer, I am a cancer survivor.
          He was 29, to early to be put under the earth before our parents.
          My brain is shattered, but I guess everyone is after such a loss. I am getting better every day, learning to live with lingerie and sadness.
          I miss you brother.

I am sorry, things turned out this way it did. 
          Me being all quiet 
          But stuff is that I am a woman, and my lovely front had gotten a setback. Meaning i need a operation to get ridd of it.
          But on a good side, maybe I finally has time for wattpad .
          Operation date is 6 of October, will walk out with proteser (those things they give you when they get rid of a limb)
          I guess I am lucky it wasn't an organ or a useful limb, depends on who you ask.
          
          Honestly, not my choice that stuff went bad in them, but i will manage , i will try.
          
          Norsk navnet er forstadier.

Exsam time on me  I have been taken exstra school so I can have bigger picture of this fabulous world  so soon I will come back 

Happy Hallowe'en eve to you all. 
          

Honestly I never expected to get any story over 10k, I am honoured that you like to read it. It hasn't been out the newest chapter ever for 24 hours and yet 18 readers. Thank you, thank you all. 

Eksamen tid...

God jul
          Merry Christmas