gabrielle🌺

LMAO omg I keep forgetting to come on here now that I'm a full-time college student and full-time worker but people keep voting on the stories I forgot I wrote and I need to keep writing them I-
          
          damn I'm HORRIBLE at keeping my life together y'all

So, um, I'm still alive. Not sure how I survived, but I guess I'll spend my time trying to find both myself and the reason why I was lucky enough to be gifted another chance at life.

@cadiyn  I love you too bb <3 keep being the amazing person you are 

When will people learn that manipulating others ain't cute? It's not attractive. It's not quirky. It's not a joke. You're causing someone to place their trust in you, knowing full well you have the intention to shatter it into a million pieces. You get close to them, find out their secrets and their past, and you learn just how many times people have broken them before...just to add yourself to that list at the end of it all. Fuck you, and FUCK the high horse you rode in on.
          
          I kept this silent for a long time because I was ashamed of what happened to me. I thought it was my fault. I thought I deserved what they did to me. I let them get close to my heart, and they broke me so badly I nearly killed myself because of it.
          
          But hearing a friend (@cadiyn) getting treated the same way is actually infuriating. They're surprisingly being a really good sport about it currently, and I'm so proud of them for having enough strength to show good face to their friends, but I can only imagine how they're feeling inside. Manipulation is TOXIC and just about one of the worst things you can do to someone that isn't inherently physical.
          
          I'm tired of being the doormat for all of the manipulative people in my life to walk upon. I don't want to deal with it anymore, but I'd rather me get manipulated than one of my friends. Mess with my friends - no matter how often we talk or how long we've known each other - and you're messing with me.

MY BABY BOYS HIT 10 MILLION SUBS THIS MORNING. THEY GON' GET A PHAT DIAMOND PLAY BUTTON AND I'M PROUD OF HOW FAR THEY'VE COME. MY CHIRREN. I'M SOBBING

So, like the hopeless romantic I am, I started writing a book of letters about a guy whom I've loved for, like, the entire school year but never told him I had feelings for him. All because of a FUCKING DREAM I had last night. gg real life 3/10 barely having a good time
          
          I can't stop thinking of him, but I also can't tell anyone except for two people in real life how I feel because they all know him too. So, yeah. I'll tell you guys. :))))))
          
          Feel free to check it out - "To Him" is the name of the book. Read if you want.

GRAYSON CRYING IN HIS CAR AFTER HE SAW A BABY DEER WHILE LISTENING TO SAD MUSIC REALLY MADE ME FEEL SOMETHING ANNA OU-

Okay, just wanted to vent a little bit, but this James Charles situation is ridiculous and I'm upset for a multitude of reasons.
          
          People keep wanting to defend this man with the very specific counterargument that everyone makes mistakes. Valid, people make mistakes, but there is a very clear distinction between making one mistake and continuously forcing yourself on straight boys and making them uncomfortable...Grayson, Jeff, Gage, the waiter, etc...he always wants to preach that LGBTQ+ people should be respected (particularly gay people, because he himself is gay) and acknowledged and represented, but he needs to understand that STRAIGHT PEOPLE'S HETEROSEXUALITY MUST BE ACCEPTED TOO. His behaviour in thinking he can physically and emotionally manipulate curious guys into staying with him for his sole benefit is actually sickening, and the mentality to choose to ignore potential gay partners for uninterested straight men is predatory and only casts negative stereotypes among the rest of us - ESPECIALLY as someone in the public eye who became famous. It's SICKENING.
          
          I've lived through being taken advantage of. Some of my closest friends have lived through such a hell and still suffer traumatic flashbacks from being taken advantage of. And the fact that James Charles has the AUDACITY to do that to other people - especially if they're trying to figure out their sexuality - is absolutely cruel and sociopathic. He knows exactly what he's doing, and has for a long time.
          
          Special note. Please don't believe EVERY single allegation coming out against James, though. I know this feels like a 180° turn, but I mention this because unfounded and unproven allegations are terrible and just as cruel as what he has done. We have veritable proof from multiple sources that have directly interacted with James about shit he has done - call him out on that. Don't attack him for stuff we don't yet know, though.

Dunno if anyone's concerned, but the goodbye message on 22 mars was because I was legitimately contemplating suicide. Well...I guess I'm still here. Shaky, rocked, unstable, but...still alive. Thanks to those who were concerned, and sorry if I scared anyone.

@ ecstasygrethan  hei