Hope.

i miss sulli...

She said she was okay and you believed her ? let me tell you what's really wrong with her. She's tired. That's exactly what she is, tired. She's tired of getting hurt, tired of being let down, she's tired of all lies, she's tired of all her flaws and insecurities. She's tired.

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          They say love is a gift for a soul. But, not for me.
          
          For me, love is an hurricane. Being in love is as stressful as being in a thunderstorm. As my grown up, love is something that hurtful. Especially when you can no longer control your feeling towards someone or something which valuable.
          
          Love will turn you into a junkie. You will start of being addicted to someone's existence. Your daily life depends on it. Since love is a morphine too, you'll be needing it everytime you're in pain, and it makes you cannot live without it.
          
          Love is deadly. Especially when you're in love with a wrong person. The one who doesn't even know what is love in literally. You can be dead in a very short time---- a finger snap period ---- when you're in love with the one who can't even appreciate your existence. 
          
          Love is something fragile. Once it is being broken, it can never be fixed. Lot of people going crazy because of it---- they cannot fix it nor just put the pieces.
          
          Love is something evil. Love will torture you and your soul, once you became its slave. No escape.
          
          Love is a big deal. The most complicated shit in life is a love. It can be anything. And that's the problem. Every single shit in life needs love for its continuity. It makes your life even harder. Especially when you can't arrange your priority to be loved.
          
          I once loved and hurt at the same time by the same person. By that time, I don't believe in idea of 'love is a gift'. It plays you. You're a fool if you keep believing that love will give you a happily ever after. 
          
          When you love someone or something with all of your heart and soul, you gotta believe me that someday it will ruin yourself at the time of saying goodbye.
          
          
          Nothing lasts forever. 
          Even the shit we spell
          L O V E.
          
          -a.g

i haven't been so mentally exhausted in such rate before. everything is getting harder day by day and the things I'm experiencing no more seem to be bearable. i really need someone to rely on, someone who's away from all those scam and dramas