@846-Unpaid-Raccoon
i love when people say "f in the chat" in a storys comments then you reply "F" in the replies with other ppl and like a year later someone replies with F again and its so silly i love being reminded of small nice interactions like that
tw vent
i dont want to bother anyone with the fullstory so i thought i should write it out on wattpad bc that way i can say it and no one will be bothered cause no ones gonna read this, but uhm since my parents are seperated and have been in court for 3 years now cause my mom wont sign divorce papers, the court required me to go to her house like every other week on weekends but since summer break is here i stay for about 4-5 days instead of only 2, and im at her house right now and she came ino the living room a few minutes ago i think like 40 minutes ago and she started venting to me and asking me if i want to stay at her house, but permenantly. because at somepoint i have to live with one of my parents 24/7 but i havent chosen any because both my parents are so shitty and i dont like any of them and i have reasons for it, i dont want to say them though beacuse this probably is gonna be rlly long. so my mom occasionally starts going on about how she needs a answer from me but i dont give her one because i dont want to think about how bad my situation really is, and she calls me heartless and tells me that i dont care about her, but she hadnt in a while so when she started again today i got upset even if i was used to it. she started saying that she s going to loose the house soon and how bad it is for her and she has no where else to go and things, she wants to know if im going to live with her because shes going to buy a new place accordingly, it sounds like shes going through stuff but shes not, shes choosing to go through with it, she has a medical degree and if she wanted to she could work at her job that payed a lot, i dont know why she left it but she wont go back because "shes waiting till i come to her" but it doesnt- continued in replied
i hatte my life i was copy and pasting and i accidentally delted one while copying smthg else so you dont get to read more drama sorry
make sense because if shes struggling she should get money from that job by working there again but thats not what this is about, she said that shes been suffering for me and that all i do is ignore her and act cold, i dont want to live with her because when i used to fulltime she would neglect me, yell at me, force me to do things, guiltrip me and more. but i was about to cry the entire time and when she told me that she shouldve adopted a child and raised it to love her instead of me because "i dont love her" i let a few tears drop, she said that it was really shameful for her that i live with my dad and that if i go into court and say i want to live with my dad then its going to be a betrayal for her since "i always betray her", she asked where i plan to live again and like i dont know, i hate it
I came back but forgot to say it but im not that active so ye
hey! so im logging out of wattpad for a few days bc of personal issues but im definitely not leaving, basically afk for a few days so bye!!
tw vent!!! slay my mental health just got worse ive been breaking down for the past 4 days fuck life
I haven't updated about my mental health in a while and i feel like barely anyone reads these but if u do, trigger warning for a vent, dont read this if your mental health is going to shit, you dont feel up to it, or if your sensitive to sad stuff, the last thing i want to do is make you upset
Its been a tough time lately, 2022, honestly, has been fucking shit. Im struggling really hard in school, im trying to get better grades and get my work done but i just cant find motivation, i find myself hating everyday until the weekend so i can hopefully get a break, but i cant even have that. My family always finds a way to ruin my day, especially on the weekends, like yesterday. My aunt yelled at me because i didnt do a project for school thats due on monday, obviously i was upset but it got worse because my dad joined in yelling at me. I we.. But i wasnt, at all, ive been feeling shitty ever since that breakdown, i woke up about an hour ago, but my aunt came into my room and immediately talked to me about the project and since i was already feeling shitty, i had another breakdown. Now I'm just, struggling. I also have online friends because my parents were never happy together and I was obviously to young to understand what was happening, so around 9-ish when i realized how bad everything was and how toxic every family member i had was, i decided to go onto the internet and be exposed to things like gacha, fnaf, anime, video games etc. I kept maturing with my interests, being on the internet has stayed with me for years, around 2020-2021, I got interested in danganronpa, tiktok and that stuff and ignored everything expect those things. When i learned that school was starting again I didn't want to go but I had to, I tried making friends but my interests made me "weird" and because of it, nobody wanted to be my friend. I was extremally lonely, eventually i found out about. im gonna continue in replies
I found out about online friends, i really liked them and i was happy because i had friends, i had people to relate to. But, when I found one friend, Sydnie, I became very drained and became more mature. I found Sydnie in early 2022 and i liked her a lot, but then, she started venting a lot more, which wouldve been fine, if it wasnt everyday. She would always vent when im typing something or talking to someone, so I felt forced to comfort her, and this was every other day, so I started being drained. I also had fake friends and stuff in school around this time so stress was building up, but it got worse when she tried to khs and i would have to stop her because i couldnt just ignore it. This really started affecting me because i had my own stress and other people were venting to me to. I basically became a therapist friend. No one listened to me so I had to keep it all inside, and with time, i became one of those people who are done with everything and one, it got to the point where was praying for a normal day, one where i didnt have to listen about anyones life, the way i phrase this makes me sound heartless or mean but i dont need anyone to invalidate my feelings, been there, done that, no more. i recently talked to her again after we grew apart because i was worried, and it turned into venting without permission and trying to sh, i tried to leave but she said that when i check in on her, shes gonna be dead. Im not suicidal, i dont wanna die, but, i wish i never woke up sometimes, i dont wanna live life, but i dont wanna throw it away, theres more stuff but im to tired to type more, thank you for reading id u did<333
HEY!! its been awhile. Since I havent been Comforting you for awhilw, I hope you're doing okay there. You can get through this dw <33!! Be strong!!
no problem, you can do this! and i was very busy due to school so I haven't open my wattpad for awhile ^_^!!
WARNING!! THIS IS A VENT PLEASE DO NOT RESPOND IF YOU ARE IN A BAD MOOD!!
NO BC WHY HAVE MY FRIENDS TRIED TO COMMIT DEATH EXACTLY 4 TIMES THIS MONTH?? IVE GOTTEN 4 "im gonna kms"'S AND LIKE 5 VENTS I SWEAR I CANNOT DO THIS SHIT I WANNA HELP THEM, I DON'T WANT THEM TO DO BUT IT FEELS LIKE A EMOTIONAL CHORE SOMETIMES LIK I CANT GET A BREAK I CAN LITERALLY BE CRYING BC OF MY HOMEWORK AND GO TO TALK TO MY FRIEND FOR A BREAK AND ILL GET A DM FROM SOMEONE LIKE "how would you react if i died?" AND ILL HAVE TO HELP THEM AND DO MY HOMEWORK I CANT EVEN TAKE A SELF CARE DAY BC MY FAMILY DOESNT BELIVE IM STRESSED SO I CANT TAKE A DAY OFF
sorta vent idk
Nah bc no one in my family is my age. my cousins always leave me out, i have emotional trauma from them, they always have fun the one time I'm not there. LIKE I HATE YALL SM AND YALL GAVE ME SO MANY ISSUES NO WONDER LITTLE ME WAS SO SAD?? Im still lonely like the only friends I have are depressed ppl on the internet and these 2 girls one's just chill and the other told the teacher i sh sometimes and told everyone it was my birthday which is not a reason to be upset but it made me look like a attention seeking bitch like- also tysm for reading this ilysm for it daily reminder ur worth it<33333
My life falling apart every 12 mins: HERE HOMEOWRK U CANT DO AND HERE 2 PRESENTATIONS AND HERE FAMILY ISSUES AND HERE STRESS!
Me, vibing to the winx soundtrack in Italian instead of doing my presentation thats due tmr which only has 2 slides done: PRENDI LA MIA MANO E PORTAMI LONTANO SIAMO WINX TRA SOGNO E REALTA-