90s_love_is_love

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90s_love_is_love

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rant alert
          so....this has been on my mind a lot lately and idk how to get it off my mind
          ive been really sad(?) for a few days cause of yk reasons in my shitty life....which maybe be revolving around a person...
          i hate the fact that even after that person has shit talked behind my back and said soooo many bad thinggs bout me...hell lately even made me feel insecure bout my smile....yet i find myself gettin attracted to them...idk the more saddened i feel the more i crave for an emotion....the emotion the person...i crave for....fun fact i actually wanna not feel this emotion...idk whether its the love or happiness i get but something keeps me connected to this emotion....the thread no matter how much i try...never breaks...pls ive done so many things...cried my emotions out...written poems....done so many other things and yet this person and this emotion never leaves me....i really hate myself for hving this emotion....