Ninelie

"Why haven't I gotten used to it by now? Same wretched situation every single time. A tragedy worthy of a drama. I've fend for myself and that's not reality. I would rather admire you from afar than stepping close with a slow painful estrange."
          
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"You are incapable of loving so you're not getting it" 
          
          I'm not getting what? Your pain? I've endured the very same pain everyday, the thought of idleness always stabs me but it's always seem to be my choice not fate, I've blamed fate for the longest time but it's me all along. It's all over now, last call. "Hello?""
          
          

"Why couldn't I write these feelings and emotions down? Why most of them are fading? I never want to forget this is why I created you. To remember the emotions I felt, to contemplate the pains , and treasure the fondest memories. I couldn't convey them all its all too much. If I didn't let these feelings write themselves, they would go beyond my reach."

”What's gonna happen to us after this? Of course, with time it would heal, I don't want to have another bad memory. Seeing you stare at me made me smile and I know it the same when I looked at you. I waited for so long, will it be worth it?  I couldn't meet your gaze for so long I always looked away when you looked back and its the same for you. It's hard being a 9, isn't it? With all these emotions it's normal for us to avoid and wait. But still, the irony of Two 9’s wouldn't make a move to one another.” 
          
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“Bittersweet”
          
          
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"I asked for constancy not alternation."
          
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"Fate, why are you so cruel? I've been stoic from every pain I've endured before this. Answer me o' fate, why? I strived and made my own way to get over  your trials, am I not worthy of true happiness? Why does my heart feels so heavy every time I see her? Is it guilt or envy?  I know happiness isn't owed to me, every little time I felt hopeful you would lead me on. Lead me on a painful conclusion. Every joy would be met with an inevitable sorrow. Dear Fate, have I suffered enough? It's like a blow to the face. I wanted to cry yet no tears would come out, even in melancholy you still wouldn't let me rest." 

Y’all I still am not sure when the next chapter of “Chains of Demise” would be released, I have the solid structure of it in my head. but being busy with school and personal reasons made it really hard for me to write and contemplate the story. For all the people (if there are) who supported this from the beginning, I thank you!!! I would also like to thank the person who made this possible. You know who you are,you gave me these bittersweet stories that I would like to share to the world!!! 
          
          As for the story of “Dear David” it would not be updated and would probably be deleted in the near future. I apologize for the people that were waiting for it. 
          
          That’s it and hopefully I would be back for the next chapter!
          
          ~R