Requiem

lowkey been trying for WEEKS to get this account back im so happy

A lot can happen in two years..

Everyone and everything has annoyed but I just have to suck it up and deal with it because I have to be the one that's always happy but when I'm not happy all of a sudden everyone's just "Are you okay?" or "Why are you sad?" I don't know because I'm always being treated like a baby instead of feeling like I'm a human being with actual problems, and to add insult to injury, I don't even know how to express myself so now I'm being pathetic writing this down on Wattpad so no one will ever even see it and I'll just end up with my feelings close to my chest until the day I drop dead.

Grades are coming in this week and I feel miserable enough because of my mom and I don't know what to do anymore I just feel like I never want to wake up again, start all over again, and die just so I can come back as something simple in life, like a small animal.

I can't feel how my problems aren't equal to others. I don't even feel valid because all the people I've known have these big problems but I can never validate my own and always have to belittle myself

Going back to old conversations and crying over the comfort they gave you >>>>

Mfs after I inevitably lose my shit because they don't repay everything I have given to them (Only two I feel as though they don't take me for granted)

Also they don't take 4 business days to notice something is wrong 

Tfw the person that caused you greater pain also brought you greater peace knowing they were someone who took you serious more than anyone else

or am I just tripping