𝐑𝐘𝐀𝐍//𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐃𝐄𝐍

Hai hai.
          
          Aku dah habis final exam hari ni, maka berlabuhlah tirai semester 3.
          
          Doakan aku tau. Dapat 4 flat dan...
          
          Doakan aku supaya aku dapat tarikh surgery tu awal sikit tau. Aku nak skip satu semester. Nak rehat. Sumpah aku penat sangat dah ni haha 
          
          Bayangkan lah aku masuk semester 4 tu dengan keadaan macam ni, memang drop lah grade aku sebab aku memang tak larat dah nak sambung pastu nak tahan sakit lagi
          
          Doakan aku cepat sembuh juga tau
          
          Aku sayang kau.
          
          Harap kita dapat jumpa lagi walaupun di alam mimpi.

hi rindu

Assalamualaikum dik ya Allah rindu dengan ragam aqishushi. 7 tahun awak tinggalkan tinggal kan akak  1 November  awak pergi mengejut tanpa sebarang ucapan..berita tragis yang sukar di lupakan.akak tahu adik penat.dunia ni kejam dik  rehat lah dik.segala ragam drama dekat group menyepi begitu bila adik kembali kepada penciptanya..rehat lah dik lepas ni akak tak usik adik lagi.
          
          Al-Fatihah buat adik syazreen balqish

Hai qiuuuuu.
          harini birthday jinna. jinna dah 20, omg tak percayanyaaaaa  mesti qiu pun tak percaya sebab jinna mcm budak ii HAHAHA
          tak aci, sebab qiu still 17 qiu still mudaaaa lagiii  tapi takpeee.
          qiu, rindulah. sangat. tolong doakan jinna kuat okay? degree life mcm susah, tapi insya Allah jinna boleh.
          sayang qiu tauuu? terima kasih pernah dtg dlm hidup jinna even Allah pinjamkan qiu sekejap je untuk jinna. But, every chats kita berdua, jinna still simpan baik ii. kalau rindu, jinna baca balik, rasa mcm baru semalam kita sembang kacip gituww HAHAHA. Luv you qiu. 

Hai hai.
          
          Aku ada beli bunga hari ni.
          
          Bunga warna putih, tapi aku tak tahu ni bunga jenis apa. Lupa nak tanya owner kedai tadi haha.
          
          ...
          
          Aku rindu kau, Qiu.
          
          Sangat.

Hai qiu sayang. dah 4 tahun kan?
          cepatnya masa berlaluuuu. and, guess what, jinna still rindu qiu .
          Qiu, nak tau takkkk?
          jinna dah masuk degree. Hmmm, not bad lah sebab classmates okay. just, ada masa jinna tak betul jugak hehe. qiu, sunyi sebenarnya masuk uni ni.. mcm apa ii pun, rasa sorang. tak tau kenape. tolong doakan jinna kuat yer? Ya Allah rindu sangat dengan qiu. taknak masuk mimpi jinna lagi ke?
          

Hii,it's 2025 already! I hope you're fine in there even though you're already gone. Love you ♥️

hi lama tak singgah

I thought someone might replace you but I was wrong.
          
          No one can.
          
          Only you can make me happy in friendship.
          
          For this long... I forgot how great it is to have friends.
          
          Nope, I'm not grieving for you anymore. It's a bad thing to grieve for this long. But for sure, I will remember you until my last breath.
          
          You're worth it to stay in my mind.
          
          Whenever everything feels heavy, only the thought of you makes me feel strong enough to endure and face all of it.
          
          I miss you. A lot.
          
          But you know, once in a while, datanglah dalam mimpi aku. Haha rindu nak borak...
          
          Okay, that's all.
          
          Love,
          R.

qiu, hai.
          
          i wrote something before this month and i thought i talked nonsense so yeah, i deleted it.
          
          so, i thought.. i am strong enough. strong enough to be alone when everyone keeps abandoning me so, i abandoned them first before they could.
          
          sometimes it hurts me when i accidentally being nice... (it's in my nature and i don't know how to feel about it) and i'm being nice to someone that hurt me before. they are absolutely turning their eyes blind for it so... at least, i want to be more aloof and cold. 
          
          this time, i don't want to be within the 'building' when i locked myself in it like a cage. instead, i want to use it as my defense mechanism to protect myself from being hurt again.
          
          i'm quite talking a lot tonight, aren't i?
          
          well, i'm gonna stop for now. 
          
          have a nice rest, qiu.
          i will always love and cherish you from here.
          
          i'm sure you're in a good place now,
          so i will live for you here.
          even though it's hard but at least i have another purpose now.
          
          xoxo, r.