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this damn HEAT is genuinely destroying me :((
          I've been in intense amounts of discomfort because of the summer heat–I genuinely can't do this.
          
          I haven't done anything fun yet, simply because I'd complain about how hot it is the entire time–and also because I haven't made any plans. 
          
          anyways, beside that, my final results came in for my diagnosis! 
          my mother hasn't told me what is on there, but we do know that bipolar was eliminated from the list. (my mom said I broke the 'family curse' because of it, but I thought it couldn't be diagnosed until later in life–) 
          but ig I'll update you guys when I get a look at my results :) 
          
          be safe my darlings, and please keep yourselves hydrated! 
          
          –Samael | Alter

im having terrible cramps today– and im mad, 
          I was supposed to go swimming yesterday, and when if I did go, I wouldn't have been able to get in the water ;w;
          
          my mom said she'll probably make me brownies later (as we don't have any bars of chocolate or candy) 
          
          but heyoo, hope y'all are doing fine this morning! 
          cya! X3
          
          –Samael | Alter

its been so hot today–
          like I genuinely have been struggling to deal with the heat, it's terrible. 
          
          but ig I've been getting through it, 
          and have been growing both my rock and plushy collection :) 
          
          I recently got four new plushies to add to it! 
          I got two dinosaur ones (one big, the other small), a star, and a toad! I really like em–
          
          but hellooo
          how's everyone been doing?–
          Im trying to be online more often, but there really isn't much to check here anymore– so yeahh, but im planning on remaking my old introduction book! 
          
          but I'mma dip, cya! X3
          
          –Samael

im once again munching on my comfort food for the third time (Dino nuggets, fries, and these little popcorn chicken thingy?) 
          
          other than that, i guess i can say im doing well? 
          Ive been sleeping in more often, and now that summer is here, im finally free! 
          im getting a MacBook soon, and ig and ipad as well? that's if my parents decide to not get me a phone, which is less likely. 
          anyways– hope you all are doing well! 
          oh, and happy pride month :D
          
          –Sammy<3

im so overwhelmed for this week. 
          
          im not physically or mentally prepared for Thursday–
          
          –Samael

I've been wanting to post an announcement, 
          but never had an idea what to hell to post–
          
          eventually I'll be posting a story, but until I get a new phone/computer, I honestly don't think I'll be touching my account. 
          
          cya<3
          
          –M

[^ I keep forgetting that im actually alive and that I didn't get hit by that car. 
          
          anyways, im getting a new phone tomorrow–
          because the current one I have cracked really bad. 
          so a family friend offered to give me her old phone since she isn't using it anymore. 
          I don't have much to say, and have no new updates.
          good night! ^]
          
          –M

the results came in today. 
          
          
          soo– not only am I autistic, but apparently during the testing, it was also found that I have adhd as well. 
          I don't know why, but the fact that I now have a diagnosis, it's oddly comforting to know what's wrong with me. 
          anyways, just wanted to share a life update–
          hope you folks are doing well, and I'll give another update later this week! (or maybe sooner, idk) 
          love you all<3
          
          
          –Samael

||rant, no serious tws. 
          
          
          
          I've been so distracted by daydreaming while listening to my music, I sometimes forget the world around me. 
          I forgot the fact that IM EVEN ALIVE in said world, and that everytime I finally manage acknowledge it that it isn't a dream. 
          I honestly think I'm zoning out while typing this announcement. even without music, I'll probably still zone out/daydream.
          oh well.
          good night!
          
          –Samael

oh boys, NIJISANJI EN is getting better again! [I say happily while watching the new wave]
          
          I then was shot down 47 times. 
          
          but no, in all seriousness, there's literally been TWO MORE graduations announced. 
          fulgur ovid (not yet, but I believe on may 5th is when he is.)
          and Ike eveland, but had a SAME DAY GRADUATION (which was today). his channel was nuked, and there was no graduation stream. (or you could call it a goodbye stream.) 
          I cried for like the last hour because of it–
          im hoping he comes back in a new life (whether or not he decides to join a new company, VShojo, this is the company most go to after their past life to start a new one, from what I've seen so far. or if he just decides to go down the path of being an indie vtuber, or go back to a past life he might've had.) 
          if any case, I just hope this month could get better–
          sighhh, good morning! 
          
          —Samael