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[^ I keep forgetting that im actually alive and that I didn't get hit by that car. 
          
          anyways, im getting a new phone tomorrow–
          because the current one I have cracked really bad. 
          so a family friend offered to give me her old phone since she isn't using it anymore. 
          I don't have much to say, and have no new updates.
          good night! ^]
          
          –M

the results came in today. 
          
          
          soo– not only am I autistic, but apparently during the testing, it was also found that I have adhd as well. 
          I don't know why, but the fact that I now have a diagnosis, it's oddly comforting to know what's wrong with me. 
          anyways, just wanted to share a life update–
          hope you folks are doing well, and I'll give another update later this week! (or maybe sooner, idk) 
          love you all<3
          
          
          –Samael

||rant, no serious tws. 
          
          
          
          I've been so distracted by daydreaming while listening to my music, I sometimes forget the world around me. 
          I forgot the fact that IM EVEN ALIVE in said world, and that everytime I finally manage acknowledge it that it isn't a dream. 
          I honestly think I'm zoning out while typing this announcement. even without music, I'll probably still zone out/daydream.
          oh well.
          good night!
          
          –Samael

oh boys, NIJISANJI EN is getting better again! [I say happily while watching the new wave]
          
          I then was shot down 47 times. 
          
          but no, in all seriousness, there's literally been TWO MORE graduations announced. 
          fulgur ovid (not yet, but I believe on may 5th is when he is.)
          and Ike eveland, but had a SAME DAY GRADUATION (which was today). his channel was nuked, and there was no graduation stream. (or you could call it a goodbye stream.) 
          I cried for like the last hour because of it–
          im hoping he comes back in a new life (whether or not he decides to join a new company, VShojo, this is the company most go to after their past life to start a new one, from what I've seen so far. or if he just decides to go down the path of being an indie vtuber, or go back to a past life he might've had.) 
          if any case, I just hope this month could get better–
          sighhh, good morning! 
          
          —Samael

Ive recently being really interested in sharks lately–
          and friday my friend offered to buy me a book (I got a book about sharks and other sea creatures!) and im really happy about it! 
          it has about 204 pages in it—so im really excited to read all of it! 
          i had this interest before, but it never went this far– so how im thinking about maybe getting more books after I finish this one. 
          anyways, enough with my rants.. 
          how have you all been? 
          hope you've been well, good night! 
          
          –Ray

I got tested for autism on Tuesday–
          the results come in on May 6th.
          so ig I'll keep you guys updated until then, 
          good night. 
          
          –Samael

sometimes, I can't dream of anything. 

uh—hi! 
          
          
          so, sorry for not posting very often. 
          I plan on releasing a art book or maybe something sooner. 
          but for the meantime, i won't be posting often. 
          bye! 
          
          —Samael

an update. i guess? 
          
          so hi everyone—
          nothing much has been happening, besides the fact that I've pretty much been awarded with so many things during school— (superintendent student award, a trip to wishfest, a special call out in the yearbook, a lot of things-) 
          my anyways, ig some important news? 
          my psychologist had mentioned to my mom that I might be autistic. (and showing some “obvious” symptoms-) 
          and she says I might have high-functioning autism.
          so at some point later this month, or maybe even upcoming months, I'll be going to get tested for it.
          so, that's a life update on me–
          life hasn't been too weird or fun. 
          so yeah-
          bye :]
          
          —Samael

Hii thank you for the follow :>
          Now you can choose a song i'll add to my follower playlist!
          Have a nice dayyy <3