AM1ASS

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It's been a really long time, it's kind of weird to me writing on this again. I'm really just here to explain why I just kind of disappeared .
          	I really enjoyed writing here. I was able to just throw my ideas into places and I found people who really enjoyed things I did. It was an escape for me.
          	My life is an absolute mess, I will say that. Amias isn't around anymore, I was never really told what happened. Amias was discharged and their parents hid them from me.
          	I went to their funeral maybe a month ago. It was really beautiful in all honesty, I got to speak in front of all their family members and say goodbye properly.
          	After Amias just disappeared I was left confused and angry. I took it out on a lot of people close to me and it ruined them. I was alone and just an asshole honestly.
          	I got really depressed and decided I shouldn't be alive anymore. I attempted to overdose, but my brother was around. My parents took everything away from me in fear of me hurting myself. I stopped eating, drinking, sleeping, and I basically turned into a corpse. I developed an ED and it's been awful.
          	I'm not really any better yet physically. I've healed my relationships, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves and cares for me. My friends came back, I'm a tad bit happier now.
          	I probably won't be coming back for a while because a lot of things from Amias are on here and I don't want to remember any of that while healing. Some chapters are still on here, and even though they're unfinished, I will post them.
          	I just want to say thank you to anyone who really kept coming back to check if I had posted, and I'm sorry for not saying anything sooner. Samswell I saw what you said, and I'm so sorry that happened to you. You seem like an amazing person and you were one of the people who influenced me to start this page. I'm sorry I couldn't finish that story for you, but I hope that maybe I'll get better and finish it one day.
          	Much love,
          	Mxcha.

AM1ASS

this message may be offensive 
It's been a really long time, it's kind of weird to me writing on this again. I'm really just here to explain why I just kind of disappeared .
          I really enjoyed writing here. I was able to just throw my ideas into places and I found people who really enjoyed things I did. It was an escape for me.
          My life is an absolute mess, I will say that. Amias isn't around anymore, I was never really told what happened. Amias was discharged and their parents hid them from me.
          I went to their funeral maybe a month ago. It was really beautiful in all honesty, I got to speak in front of all their family members and say goodbye properly.
          After Amias just disappeared I was left confused and angry. I took it out on a lot of people close to me and it ruined them. I was alone and just an asshole honestly.
          I got really depressed and decided I shouldn't be alive anymore. I attempted to overdose, but my brother was around. My parents took everything away from me in fear of me hurting myself. I stopped eating, drinking, sleeping, and I basically turned into a corpse. I developed an ED and it's been awful.
          I'm not really any better yet physically. I've healed my relationships, I have an amazing boyfriend who loves and cares for me. My friends came back, I'm a tad bit happier now.
          I probably won't be coming back for a while because a lot of things from Amias are on here and I don't want to remember any of that while healing. Some chapters are still on here, and even though they're unfinished, I will post them.
          I just want to say thank you to anyone who really kept coming back to check if I had posted, and I'm sorry for not saying anything sooner. Samswell I saw what you said, and I'm so sorry that happened to you. You seem like an amazing person and you were one of the people who influenced me to start this page. I'm sorry I couldn't finish that story for you, but I hope that maybe I'll get better and finish it one day.
          Much love,
          Mxcha.

AM1ASS

Y'ALL AMIAS GETS DISCHARGED TOMORROW SO WE'RE GONNA HOPEFULLY GET BACK TO OUR NORMAL SCHEDULE !!

daydreamery012

Hi Mxcha <3 I'm so glad to hear that !!! And take all the time you need. There is no rush.
            
            I hope you and Amias are doing amazing and enjoyed the end of last year. Mxcha you're amazing and so kind for having been there for Amias during all these months.
            
            Mxcha, you know me as samswell from youtube on Heaven's playlists. [ I can't thank you enough for having written the Blade fanfic for me, it means so much <333]
            
            I changed my username here on wattpad for daydreamery012. Someone was stalking me online a few months ago. So I changed my username to ensure my safety. On youtube my username is still the same (samswell)
            
            I wish you and Amias a very happy new year, plenty of happiness, love and that you both fulfill all your dreams
            
            I absolutely love the new Blade fanfic you're writing. It's so well written. I hope there will be more chapters coming because I am obsessed with the story and with Blade obviously haha
            
            Have a lovely day/night 
            Take care & stay safe
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