AMLKoski

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I am alive. 
          	
          	Just checking in with you guys. Work still hasn't changed and Im looking for other employment diligently but there isn't much around. So my job is still kicking my ass. I had a full weekend off, the first in forever, and I spent a majority of time sleeping. 
          	
          	There has been more frustrating shit happening with the person who is supposed to be the 'support specialist' who keeps making basic errors I need to correct because she's ignoring them and people are reaching out to ME because she's ignoring them and they know I can correct the mistakes. 
          	
          	Added to this the fact she is ignoring my update emails and then coming back several days later being like whats going on with this???? And I have to be like I emailed you about this twice already this week. Did you not read the updates I sent? 
          	
          	But Im gunna set that aside because Im getting agitated just THINKING about it. 
          	
          	But yes, I am alive. Im still exhausted an unable to write, and Im looking for other jobs. 

jennlile

If you’re interested in a possible position you can email me at jennlile1974@gmail.com. The company my daughter works for is amazing. It’s an international company and everyone works remotely 
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Jette72

@AMLKoski hopefully you can find a better suited workplace soon. In the meantime take care of you. As much as I love your stories, I will wait patiently
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Bessie1914

I'm so sorry that work is so frustrating for you. I do agree with UnkeptAunt; if you aren't already doing so, document everything. While it is even more work on your overloaded plate, you need to protect yourself until you can find another job.  Please use what time you have away from work to take care of yourself as best you can. Sending you zen hugs.
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InTheLochNess

I remember reading the forgotten series when I first got on wattpad! I’m on a nostalgia kick and about to reread the series and catch up on all the new stuff. I remember it being all I could talk about back then! 

AMLKoski

@InTheLochNess im really glad to have you back! And if book 4 was the last you actually are in luck! Ive started writing book 8! 
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InTheLochNess

@AMLKoski god I think I got to book 4 before I stopped but I’m determined. Getting back to my roots. 
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AMLKoski

@InTheLochNess im glad you made you way back! Not sure how long youve been gone but there should be some new books up!
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AMLKoski

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I am alive. 
          
          Just checking in with you guys. Work still hasn't changed and Im looking for other employment diligently but there isn't much around. So my job is still kicking my ass. I had a full weekend off, the first in forever, and I spent a majority of time sleeping. 
          
          There has been more frustrating shit happening with the person who is supposed to be the 'support specialist' who keeps making basic errors I need to correct because she's ignoring them and people are reaching out to ME because she's ignoring them and they know I can correct the mistakes. 
          
          Added to this the fact she is ignoring my update emails and then coming back several days later being like whats going on with this???? And I have to be like I emailed you about this twice already this week. Did you not read the updates I sent? 
          
          But Im gunna set that aside because Im getting agitated just THINKING about it. 
          
          But yes, I am alive. Im still exhausted an unable to write, and Im looking for other jobs. 

jennlile

If you’re interested in a possible position you can email me at jennlile1974@gmail.com. The company my daughter works for is amazing. It’s an international company and everyone works remotely 
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Jette72

@AMLKoski hopefully you can find a better suited workplace soon. In the meantime take care of you. As much as I love your stories, I will wait patiently
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Bessie1914

I'm so sorry that work is so frustrating for you. I do agree with UnkeptAunt; if you aren't already doing so, document everything. While it is even more work on your overloaded plate, you need to protect yourself until you can find another job.  Please use what time you have away from work to take care of yourself as best you can. Sending you zen hugs.
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AMLKoski

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I havent forgotten you guys or A Little Left to Give. Ive spent the last however many weeks doing 6 day work weeks because people have gone on holidays and Im so wiped at the end of the day all I do I end up sitting on the couch and mindlessly staring. 
          
          I really want to write but Im so physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted that I can't muster up the ability to write anything. And Im doing ANOTHER 6 day work week this week and it just sucks. 
          
          Im hoping, fingers crossed, that Ill be able to pull back at work or leave it entirely sometime soon. I have noticed that my ability to write tanked pretty much the same month they piled on the third and fourth job duties onto me already juggling two. 
          
          I mean doing a majority of the Service manager's job, my origonal job, all the shop foreman paperwork, training random people, AND the branch admin job is fucking excessive. Its no wonder Im tapped out at the end of the day. Without me the service department grinds to a halt. And my boss, the service manager keeps pushing more onto me by saying it's just a small thing. 
          
          One of these days im going to have to sit him down and explain to him that a job is a bunch of small things and im already doing the small things of 4 fucking positions. So no. It's no longer a small thing, the glass is overflowing, you cant add anymore small drops to it. I honestly can't do it anymore.
          
          I will be so happy when I can hand in my notice and watch them all panic. The amount of joy I know I will get should be illegal. But ill be allowed to enjoy it in all of its deliciousness. 

SarahIero4

@AMLKoski I am so happy about the last update bc It was on my birthdaywishing you well, pls take care of yourself we love youu
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annievwinter

@AMLKoski this sounds like a total burn out job, you should get away from. Can you put in sick leave for two weeks? Wishing you all the best
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AMLKoski

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@VailedStarz thank you so much! You guys mean the world to me and I hate that I am unable to write anything right now because the story SO wants to be told but I can't write it. Im so exhausted. Ive got fingers crossed Ill be able to leave sooner rather than later. That's what keeps me going. 
            
            @Bbbbbaaaa1234567890 at this point, my boss, my bosse's boss, and the guy above (who is no longer here), all know Im doing more than I should be. They are FULLY aware of it. HR is aware of it but because im 'able' to do it, I just need to 'tough' it out until things 'settle'. Which is a bunch of buzz words that mean fuck you, deal with it. I would love to have a union but sadly we don't. I am actively looking at quitting so staying isn't in my playbook at the moment. The moment I was denied my raise because of my medical condition, I instantly lost all loyalty and have been biding my time to move on. 
            
             @deacsrider I appreciate you guys too! Im doing my best to take care of my mental health in a time that feels super detrimental to it right now. I know it will get better, I just need to carry on through.
            
            @elisa987 im doing my best! Ive been forcing myself to do my hobbies to try and stop this rather exhausted and depressive sit and stare ive been doing for the past few weeks. Last sunday I picked some raspberries from my feral patch and tended to my grape plants. That was nice. 
            
            @readerchick70 im hoping so too! Ill hand in my notice with the biggest grin on my face and watch as everythint grinds to a halt once Im gone. The mental image of it is currently what gets me up in the morning to get ready for another day in this crushing hell scape I call a job.
            
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AMLKoski

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Guys I want to update today but work has been sooo fucking busy *cries*. 
          
          Honestly, ever since they dumped the branch admin position on me Ive been so busy its not even funny. I honestly want to find another job because Im currently doing my OG job, the Service manager job (because he delgates 90% of his duties to me), the branch admin job, as well as they have me detailing some units. All without a single pay raise. 
          
          That doesnt even account for people coming to me for training because Im one of the longest running people in my position. I think across the complex of nearly 2k people, with about 40 locations Im one of like 2 who have been in this position for over 5 years. Its honestly bullshit. The first chance I get, Im out.
          
          But enough venting. Im gunna do my best to get an update for A Little Left to Give edited and posted. Just bear with me a little.

AMLKoski

@readerchick70 sadly HR is apparently the one who denied my pay raise. So I doubt ill get any help from them. But when I hand in my notice ill be doing that smiling dog meme cause I know it will be hell to replace me.
            
             @Bxcyted surprisingly not a bank. I work in an agriculture dealership. But thr service side. However I am no admin and service and the guy who took over for the service manager just decided to drop 90% of his work on me because 'hes too busy'. And I actually stopped watching movies cause they have all been meh for so long
            
            @hoburns thanks! I did finish the update last night and finalized my edits this morning. So it's posted now! Yay!
            
            @ambjeanhy my matcha frappe was PERFECT! So your good vibes was just what I needed!
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readerchick70

@AMLKoski honestly I would talk to HR. HOWEVER......PLEASE DON'T BURN YOURSELF OUT!!!!! Remember it's not up to you to save everyone. It's ok to choose yourself. 
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Bxcyted

Sounds as if you work for a financial institution/bank. I’ve worked in that industry for the past 32 years and it’s never been a worse environment.  Too bad you can’t make a living off your writing. It’s good enough. Or get a movie made from one of your books. Would be better than a lot I’ve seen recently. 
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shithumans_

When can we buy Sorrel and Lace's book at Amazon? I wanna buy the hardcopies 

Sillentwillow

@shithumans_ same here. Waiting for the hardcopies to drop. 
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AMLKoski

@Bxcyted i will! No worries! I also update the books themselves with a published and available page.
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Bxcyted

If by “Lace’s” you mean “A cold wind blows “, I’d  buy a hard copy of that one myself.  I’ve read it enough times for free. Let us know which books are in print when you have time to update your profile. 
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Edinah3003

Hey love, hope you're having a beautiful time. Appreciate you. Matter of fact I'm rereading the Twisted dark series again just for just  ❤️❤️

AMLKoski

@Edinah3003 i am so far! Work has been busy and Ive been doing my best to stay on top of all of it! And I hope you enjoy the reread!
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AMLKoski

Its been forever but A Little Left to Give had been updated!
          
          The outline was giving me grief and then spring time is always hell with my insomnia and the seasons changing and temperatures fluctuating. I haven't written much but the outline is officially done! Im so excited!
          
          Having that safety net honestly makes me feel so much better. I feel more secure in what Im writing now that's its no longer open ended. Im hoping to get back onto the writing train soon. 
          
          So we aren't looking at consistent updates just yet but Im hoping we get there soonish. Love you guys for sticking with me through the craziness!
          
          Cheer!
          Anna

AMLKoski

@Nadanae to be perfectly honest, ill prolly be old and grey and still writing! I love it so much
            
            @Galaxy_Psycho a good deodorant is worth it's weight in gold! So im glad!
            
            @VailedStarz glad to be back! (Sorry about the late reply)
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Nadanae

@AMLKoski hey love it you're still writing !! i started with a 10yo book and was thinking you must have stopped publishing here by now
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Galaxy_Psycho

We always with you 100% of the way, like deodorant that’s holding on when you’re super sweaty
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VictoriaMurray293

Are you okay? 

AMLKoski

@VictoriaMurray293 hey! Yah I am, relatively. Been super exhausted with my insomnia kicking my ass, as it usually does in the spring. It took me forever to get the outline reworked and finished. I actually finished it this weekend.
            
            Im actually hoping to get something written for the next chapter and get back into the swing of things for finishing the book.
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