I have read one of your books and when I read what you went through I Reyes imaging what it felt like, I know I can't fully fell what you fell but I do understand depression because your not the only one I go through depression too, and I understand what you fell I fell it to that you probably fell hated, useless, weak, misfit, lonely, like there's no reason to live ect but you are probably an amazing, beautiful (inside and outside), funny, lovable, trusting, honest and talented girl I know I don't know you put I think that your friends don't deserve you and that they just throw away a great friend and your grandpa wouldn't want you to be like this and those 'friends' of yours shouldn't get the satisfaction of knowing they got to you I may not know you but I think it would be awesome to have a friend like you and remember this there is someone out there that loves you if they tell you or not and if you ever need to talk to someone you can talk or text me. So I hope your depressed gets better.