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@APersoNobodyNotices yup

@Tw1c3L0ver Thanks

@whatautumndoin Thanks

Oh good luck (even if I don’t know you)

@APersoNobodyNotices I'm already entering university at the end of July. 

Tight chest, tight throat, red eyes, tight lips...too many sensations.
            That's failure, self-destruction no longer calms me, painting, listening to music, reading, watching YouTube videos, nothing, everything takes me to the edge, there is no calm, I can't go out because there are people with bad intentions, I can't stay inside because those thoughts eat me up. 

Will I ever be able to achieve lightness and leave the weight behind?

No matter how hard I try, it doesn't work out, everything goes wrong, it's frustrating. 

@APersoNobodyNotices I know I might be getting carried away by my emotions, that I'm exaggerating, that it might not make much sense, but it's those little things, those decisions that have a big impact.

@APersoNobodyNotices I missed a question to answer, one of those mandatory questions that didn't give points but you still had to answer, but I didn't see it and I only remembered it when I got home. I just had to answer everything, get a good score, and get into college, but I'm not even capable or good at that, so now that's hurting my test results. I have never felt so frustrated and disappointed with myself. I know it may seem silly, I know the test can be repeated, I know there is a solution, but I really want to get a scholarship. Not be a burden, to be able to maintain a scholarship for at least the first two semesters with my good grades, but no, I always have to mess it up with something, it's as if it were predetermined to never do things right, I'm always doing something wrong, as if my effort weren't worth it, as if everything I had to do remained as a common goal that everyone could easily achieve.