To be honest, I've learned several things during this vacation before starting my second semester, but it's mostly because they're useless or have nothing to do with my chosen career that I am studying, which minimizes my achievements.
The question is why are they following me? I don't think my comments are so enlightened or admirable that they would follow me, nor do I think they're from someone stable. I'm not saying it's wrong.
It frustrates me and makes me feel helpless that no matter how hard I try, I won't get the results I want, or I'll always mess something up. The truth is, I don't feel useful or good at anything.
Next week is midterm week, I'm not ready for this. Then I realized that I had to do two mandatory mentoring sessions to pass the course, and supposedly before week 7, and I only got a spot in week 7. I'm not liking this 7am to 7pm schedule.