@APersoNobodyNotices
Nah, the week has barely started and I'm already doing badly, how can something I put so much effort into not be worth anything and have such a low grade, especially with such a high percentage...
@APersoNobodyNotices I really broke down, not in terms of dancing... I'm so frustrated and stressed right now from having to get everything perfect because of that note.
Two months and one week until the end of this semester...or the semester ends with me...
I've realized I'm on autopilot.
It feels strange when you get the news that someone you saw recently has died. I saw her, I managed to say goodbye more or less, but it feels empty and heavy.
@APersoNobodyNotices Her condition gave her no more than three months to live, but that doesn't make the situation any better. It saddens me that she spent her last day suffering; I would have preferred her to die without pain. I prefer that people are conscious and have quality of life, not what she had, she suffered until the last moment, she was no longer conscious.
12 weeks left...
Just 16 more weeks and I'll finish this semester...Or the semester will finish me...
My second semester starts on Monday, I feel nervous, I feel like I'm not capable of doing anything, like I'm already failing as soon as I breathe.
To be honest, I've learned several things during this vacation before starting my second semester, but it's mostly because they're useless or have nothing to do with my chosen career that I am studying, which minimizes my achievements.
The question is why are they following me? I don't think my comments are so enlightened or admirable that they would follow me, nor do I think they're from someone stable. I'm not saying it's wrong.
It frustrates me and makes me feel helpless that no matter how hard I try, I won't get the results I want, or I'll always mess something up. The truth is, I don't feel useful or good at anything.
