ASadGhost

woah guys those were way too many vents from me...
          don't worry there won't be any more of that X)
          Aaanyways !!! New fanfic coming out soon... hehehehehe

Hey! Just a little vent with an announcement,, won't be posting another chapter for a little bit, I don't feel mentally okay enough.
          
          Alright uh- vent!!
          
          I hate this. I hate this so much. I love her so, so, much. I don't know if she loves me as much I love her though, it's as if she's losing feelings and it hurts. 
          I always have to be the first to text, and I don't ever get an "I love you" without me saying it first. I don't even know if I want to stay alive for her anymore, I'd rather kill myself than continue feeling like shit.
          
          I love her, I'd do anything for her, but I don't know nor think she'd do the same. 

I can't wait until I'm older
          Then maybe I'll be able to get the needed materials for my sticky glitter bombs >:)...

I
          Feel
          So
          AHJDBSJDBDH
          I FEEL SO DAMN WEAK BRO
          I HAD A RANDOM BURST OF MOTIVATION FOR THE PAST 2-3 DAYS AND USED IT MAKING TWO DOLLS. ONE OF MANDY AND ONE OF CHESTER
          I HAVE LOST THE MOTIVATION . (I needed it to write my books:( ) 
          Also I woke up feeling awfully weak this morning??  I think it's cause of making the Chester doll, part of the Mandy doll, and helping assemble a table yesterday........ But anyway
          Help me, I'm definitely going to wake up weak asf tomorrow  (the dolls are posted on my tt, as4dgh0st) 

Another vent :') I don't want to stress out my girlfriend and make her uncomfortable
          
          Maybe tomorrow's the day. 
          The day a useless person leaves this earth, a disappointment. I'm just dead weight, it'll be better if I'm gone. All I do is upset and annoy people, I can't even cope properly?? It either hurts me or someone else. I really hope the attempt works, I don't deserve to live. Everyone will be happier when I'm gone. 

my discord is "zankyo_iidabashi"

Warning: small vent :(
          
          I'm honestly so goddamn burnt out nowadays. I feel like doing nothing and just staying in bed. I don't even feel like bringing my partyhorn to school anymore, or to even make lil bday gifts for people.. Constantly being told I'm annoying and too loud whenever I'm outgoing and my "cool" party person self. 
          Yet when I keep it all in, I'm suddenly boring and strict?? I'm so tired of it, I don't even have any motivation to write or animate or draw— I don't know how long this will l go on for, but I promise I'll try my best to continue working on one or two of my books once I feel a bit better.