AThingNotUsedTo

I miss technoblade.

AThingNotUsedTo

Dearthe people who maybe expect an update on any of my stories after me not updating for like a year, 
          
          I'm probably won't be able to write because Im not really into these things anymore. I might, but who knows really? I've also been stressed because of online school and some family stuff.
          
          Thank you.
          
          Love, 
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AThingNotUsedTo

April 1, 2019
          A couple of days ago, my friend confessed to being bi. He told me that he, in the past has had a crush on one of our classmates. I support him fully, but we are still children, we still need to think things out, so I'm not angry if he doesn't come out, hell I'm pretty sure I won't come out for a couple years, maybe I won't come out at all. Maybe it's just a phase. Sure I have a crush on this girl, but maybe it's nothing, but even though she rejected me I'm still always searching for her, ah I don't know, life is confusing.

AThingNotUsedTo

April 1, 2019
          If someone stumbles over my page and wonders why I'm pouring my heart out to strangers on the internet, it's because a character from a movie said so, it said that you should pour your heart out on a letter or something to someone, and send it to someone else, and it's oddly satisfying. So here I am writing pouring my heart out to strangers on the internet.

AThingNotUsedTo

You chucked me out like I was trash for that you should be dead
          
          BUT BUT BUT
          
          Then it hit me like a flash, what if high school went away instead?
          Those assholes are the key, their keeping you away from me.
          They made you blind
          Messed up your mind,
          But I can set you free.
          You left me and I fell apart
          I punched the wall and cried.
          
          BAM BAM BAM
          
          Then I found you've changed my heart,
          And set loose all that truthful shut inside,
          And so I built a bomb.
          Tonight our shool is Vietnam.
          It's guaranteed they'll never see tgeir senior prooooooom.

AThingNotUsedTo

Have you ever gotten so angry you wanted to punch a wall, but you know its a bad idea so you just sit there stewing in anger, and you just wait until the others leave the room, or you move to another room, and start punching everything soft, so you don't break your hand, but after a couple punches you start getting more sad than angry, and you just sit there sobbing, and thinking of all the bad things about you, the ones that your sister points out almost everyday, and think of the fact that no matter what you do you will never be good enough for your family, but then someone knocks on the door, so you get rid of the tears and go outside with a smile. Yeah... This has happened to me 5 times in the past day and I dont know why.