Healing is such a long and painful process you will go through never ending trials and tribulations but I just know that the day you're finally free from all that self deprecating, anger, pain, depression, anxiety everything will soon make you realize it was worth it. Maybe not the situation that occurred for you to be in that position but sometimes we need to hit rock bottom to find ourselves again and that's okay, but please don't be like me and lose yourself in the process of it