A_confused_being

So, hello, this is an impulse post, and here is all I have to say. 
          
          I have attempted to unalienable myself many times in my life, and I hit 19 attempts 12 minuets ago. And, to answer the people who are going to say "don't you have a lot to live for?" No. I do not. My theatre class is over, my parents prefer Mr gone than there, and unless I'm money or a video game, my brother doesn't care. So instead, I have resorted to this. I may not be around for even longer because I'm a piece of shit, but that's besides the point. 
          
          Anyways back to a mental breakdown I go!!
          -Than

I LIVE!!!
          Yes, I am alive, I have a shitty mental state, and I have absolutely no inspiration!! Whoo!
          
          Anyways... I have a chapter in the works for both the Solby out takes book and for Trap house Group Chat. I'm mostly just posting on AO3 tho...
          
          One final thing that doesn't matter, but Im changing my name! So here, let me explain. My legal name is Alexa, and when I met Alex I had had the name Ethan, Than for short, given to me. But, I decided that is DOES NOT FIT!! So, I have chosen the name... Virgil!! And no it is not from Sanders Sides, but rather from Dantes Inferno. 
          
          Anyways, I should be off of my hiatus/break soon!

Lmao, thanks! Imma go boop people lol :)

TW: Self harm and mental hospitals 
          
          Me: *goes to write new chapter*
          My family: *Finds out I'm self harming*
          Me and my mom: *Get in car to go to mental hospital*
          Me: 'I think I'm gonna write a fluffy chapter to hide my emotions!'
          
          I was later evaluated and told my mental state is shit and I need to be in an outpatient program lmao

So I'm scrolling through my phone bored when I decide, you know what, I'm gonna check on wattpad. So, I check on my account and I gi from 34 followers to FUCKING 97 FOLLOWERS!! THE FUCK BRO? 
          
          Like seriously though, where did yall come from? Thank you guys so much! (I also might be updating shit again soon because my mania seems to be kicking in )

✨BOOP✨
          
          now BOOP other 10 people

Uhmm... so a few things. 
          
          1. Da Fuq! Why do I have 2k reads on my crapp af story? It's so terrible and yet there are so many reads!.
          
          2.Uhmm... I'm in top 30 for Solby. Like da fuq. Why am I here bro!
          
          3. I am so sorry. I am going to be afk for a long af time. Like really freaking long. I'll be back in maybe March. If you see me before that... idk I finally got better or something.

Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate!!
          
          And a Happy Thursday to those who don't!!
          
          

Welp... guess imma be writing a lot...
          
          My states on full lockdown again!!! So... chapters!!!

Hello, I realised that rather than posting my next chapter I deleted it. How the fick I screwed that up I dont know but I did! Anyways, as a way to make it up to yall I'm doing an outtake story from the groupchat story. It will. Basically be milestones from Sam and Colbys relationship. 
          
          Here's the list of oneshots:
          
          First meeting
          First fight
          First exploration
          Moving to California (two parts)
          First California exploration
          First kiss
          First date
          Second date
          First time (this is an optional thing in my mind)
          Moving into the traphouse
          First overnight
          First fight (relationship)
          First break (up)
          First apology
          Third date
          
          I will probably do more than just those, but yeah that's all I have for now. Any ideas or requests please comment below or message me. Thank you!