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I CONSTANTLY HAVE IDEAS, AND CONSTANTLY WROTE SHIT DOWN & CONSTANTLY HAVE THE MOTIVATION TO DO SO. Why am I not so promenant on Wattpad? Constant ideas that I constantly wrote down & wrote of.
I'm like fucking Alexander Hamilton but I never finish anything bc my brain is just cloudy & Disoriented & after 2 hrs, the letters start getting fucking blurry.
Like..
STAY TF STILL PLEASE?? I Can't read you anymore D:
[I'm not dyslexic I just need breaks or pauses for something unless my mind decides it's a perfect chance to say "fuck it" & power down & then I can't do shit, BUT, those breaks end up with me having 80 new ideas & before I know it I'm distracted from the original to work on some of them, mixing them together & just wrotting the other ones down on something, I'll never touch them]
Idk why I'm like this, My brain is so fucking hyper bit not like in the chill way?? sometimes I whine & cry & just shut down for no reason & go non-verbal & it sucks, and sometime I just go rouge & let my energy go & let my body move & do whatever I want bc it's full I like those times but I quickly take notice it's annoying-
I was originally planning this to transition into a new Xornoth centered story idea I have & I cannot stop thinking abt & I'm genuinely not ok with, I'm obsessed wuth this lil guy like I'm obsessed wuth the autism yippee creature, it's just so silly I fucking love it so much & everytime I see it I wanna cry bc I know It isn't real & now I'm sad over a fucking fictional character.. 2 characters, a silly lil drawing of a random ass lil cute & adorable & squishable thing & a minecraft roleplay oc from fucking Scott /dangthatsalongname that's also cute & very squishable & AWWWW